problem too.? So, it's been quite some time since I really noticing that I do this. I like to create alternate realities that I kind of live in when I'm alone or when I'm in class and really don't want to pay attention. I know this is perfectly normal, but what worries me a little about myself is the fact that I'll, at times, pretend that the person that I'm speaking to my alternate world is around me. I don't answer my own questions verbally, but I do think of what their answer will be in my mind.
Let me create a scenario:
Sometimes I'll be sitting in the living room watching TV alone and, at times, I'll pretend that a current crush (usually a celebrity crush) is sitting on the other end of the couch. I will then try to create some type of scenario in the mind and sometimes I speak out loud to the crush. I don't, however, answer my questions to the crush verbally but rather in my mind - or at least I don't think I answer my own questions.
I, also, have this really stupid paranoia problem, which messes around with my 'perfect' worlds.
I want to believe that nothing is wrong with me and that I'm not a rare case, but I've made myself believe that I need help - but Ive never gone out seeking for the help.
The worst part is that every now and then I'll breakdown by triggering my emotions. Basically, I end up crying all night. I started writing in a journal to possibly help and when reading back at what is written - it kind of gets scary.
I go off about everything about my family to how fake I feel around everyone to not wanting to wake up the next morning so I wouldn't have to deal with anything anymore.
I just want a confirmation that although I am perfectly fine (mentally) I should may either make this journaling more consistent, speak to a friend or start seeing a therapist because I clearly have some deep issues that I need to overcome. The other thing is that I really don't like speaking to myself - is there anyway to break this.
Let me create a scenario:
Sometimes I'll be sitting in the living room watching TV alone and, at times, I'll pretend that a current crush (usually a celebrity crush) is sitting on the other end of the couch. I will then try to create some type of scenario in the mind and sometimes I speak out loud to the crush. I don't, however, answer my questions to the crush verbally but rather in my mind - or at least I don't think I answer my own questions.
I, also, have this really stupid paranoia problem, which messes around with my 'perfect' worlds.
I want to believe that nothing is wrong with me and that I'm not a rare case, but I've made myself believe that I need help - but Ive never gone out seeking for the help.
The worst part is that every now and then I'll breakdown by triggering my emotions. Basically, I end up crying all night. I started writing in a journal to possibly help and when reading back at what is written - it kind of gets scary.
I go off about everything about my family to how fake I feel around everyone to not wanting to wake up the next morning so I wouldn't have to deal with anything anymore.
I just want a confirmation that although I am perfectly fine (mentally) I should may either make this journaling more consistent, speak to a friend or start seeing a therapist because I clearly have some deep issues that I need to overcome. The other thing is that I really don't like speaking to myself - is there anyway to break this.