I really messed up this time

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Hey Girl,

I could have written your post. Definatley. I know exacley how you feel. The only differnce for me is that I knew/know its not a matter of control over the alcohol. The alcohol controls me. At the end, I could not stop drinking. No matter what my consequences were, I still drank. Loss of loved ones, jobs, self respect, all of that and I still drank. I COULD NOT STOP.
Its late, do a search on my name and read my story. I am an alcoholic and could not manage my life while drinking. I cant drink alcohol safely. I do not process alcohol like a normal person. My life is soooo much better now. No more lying, cheating and all of the other stuff. I dont wake up in the morning and make a drink. Read my posts and if you want to chat more, hit me up. I KNOW EXACTLEY how you are feeling and the load of crap that you are in right now. If you are like me, and I think you are, in my drinking days, I would drink over this mess. I could not stop on my own.

Marilyn
 
Good luck to you on this journey to recovery. You will look back on this and be grateful that you took the right albeit very hard steps to take control of your life. You deserve to live the life you know is healthier, happier and better for you. Dont let anyone or anything stand in your way! Im sending a big smile and hugs....
 
Hi there. I just barely joined this board and your post was an inspiration to be my first response. The most important thing for you to know right now is that taking the first step is extremely difficult. This I know to be fact as I have taken that first step quite a few times. I'm once again choosing not to drink and am celebrating 28 days today. So, please know there are others out here in cyberspace who care about you. I'll be back. :angel:
 
Good for you! Remeraber, one day at a time really works! Ninety days might seem a lot, but when you think about using and that you did it every day, it's not so hard to imagine going to an AA meeting today. And, do not anticipate what tomorrow will bring. Just get through today.
Thinking about you!
 
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