Sampson Spencer
New member
ok i work hard very hard. i am honest . i drive a truck . 2x in a row i have been ripped off by my different companies that fell on hard times and just didnt pay me thousands of dollars . each time when out of work some freak accident happens and i end up not being able to work. like now i have a aclu and bone fracture no coverage other then hosp. but nothing else.. no money coming in. huge mess . govt says oh money will come from your work. however one job is now 2 years ago govt worked on it all the time and i got 0 out of it . this time 4 weeks work owning to me and i am not even going to apply for govt to help as it is uselss.. i wish i was dead . have for a very long time. never have i been happy . not as a child and sure not now. i do fear hell and that alone is why i dont kill myself . however this life sucks. cant just go old west and go get my money or i would . i am left now with less then 5 dollars . what should i do. oh because i was private contractor i do not quailify for any form of govt asst. is there a way i could cause my death say by not eatting and still get to heaven.