I *look like* the average 15-year-old white american boy. I *am* a not-so-average-looking 18-year-old Lakota indian. well, at the moment i am 17... i will be 18 in less than a week. i am at a point in my life where i young enough to stay at home with my parents and not work without being called a bum or loser. but i won't be for very much longer.
i dropped out of school when i was a sophomore, just as soon as i turned sixteen (lowest legal age). i have been looking for a job ever since. literally, monday through friday for months i looked for work, any work. i found a two-day job and got $100 out of it, but not even so much as a fast food place would hire me. one year later i decided to go to college, where i failed miserably and consecutively. so,a few quarters in, i decide to stop wasting money and look for a job again. i find this time around that LOTS of people are looking for work. the problem is they can not hire me until i am 18. so, i wait a few months and here i am, almost eighteen.
im tired, so sick and tired that it has brought me to depression, of waking up every day and just waiting. waiting for my body to get tired, so that i can go to sleep again. where i live, there are not a lot of lakota indians. not enough for a tribe. so i 'belong' to the cherokee, which are of abundance here. their tribe adopted me, and there are a few lakota there, and i have learned so much from them.
there is a lot of forest to the north east of where i live. if i bike it will take a few weeks to get there. i don't know whats privately owned and whats not... i know there are mountain lions and bears and other large animals and predators out there. i want to go there on a vision quest. i don't know what else i am supposed to do. i have not been exposed to anything that i believe will help me except for this.
what i need is a Lakota Native to teach me. by lakota native, i am not talking about blood, i am not talking about an academic expert, i am talking about someone who knows the lakota ways.
are there any here on y/a that can help me?
i dropped out of school when i was a sophomore, just as soon as i turned sixteen (lowest legal age). i have been looking for a job ever since. literally, monday through friday for months i looked for work, any work. i found a two-day job and got $100 out of it, but not even so much as a fast food place would hire me. one year later i decided to go to college, where i failed miserably and consecutively. so,a few quarters in, i decide to stop wasting money and look for a job again. i find this time around that LOTS of people are looking for work. the problem is they can not hire me until i am 18. so, i wait a few months and here i am, almost eighteen.
im tired, so sick and tired that it has brought me to depression, of waking up every day and just waiting. waiting for my body to get tired, so that i can go to sleep again. where i live, there are not a lot of lakota indians. not enough for a tribe. so i 'belong' to the cherokee, which are of abundance here. their tribe adopted me, and there are a few lakota there, and i have learned so much from them.
there is a lot of forest to the north east of where i live. if i bike it will take a few weeks to get there. i don't know whats privately owned and whats not... i know there are mountain lions and bears and other large animals and predators out there. i want to go there on a vision quest. i don't know what else i am supposed to do. i have not been exposed to anything that i believe will help me except for this.
what i need is a Lakota Native to teach me. by lakota native, i am not talking about blood, i am not talking about an academic expert, i am talking about someone who knows the lakota ways.
are there any here on y/a that can help me?