I need help with this weird spaced out alone feeling. please read details!?

[brandon]

a little over a month a go, i accidentally took two ambien sleeping pills at my fathers house. they were in the wrong bottle which was labeled with an apsirin tag on it. i thought they were chewable aspirin so i chewed one but swalloed the other. when he told me, he then took me to the hospital. but they wanted to run tests on me but he thought if i just go home and sleep then i will be fine. the thing is though that i wasnt sleepy at all. i just felt very spacy and was seeing doubles. i then even went home and layed for an hour before falling asleep. my speech was very slurred too and my eyes fluttered. when i woke up, i felt very unable to concentrate. I thought maybe i needed to go get those tests. so when i came back to my moms house a few days later i started to have anxiety attacks and my grandma (who me and my mom are living with temporarily) took me to the hospital and i got the tests. my cat scan came up fine and so did the blood heart and urine. since then i was put on 10mg of lexapro but it made me feel depressed and anxious so i weened off about a week and a half ago. but ever since that night a month ago. I am always very out of it and foggy in my head. Its so scary and nobody seems to be able to relate to me or help me. I already see a counselour weekly so please dont give me the obvious. I get anxious now in big crowds. Is this just psychologically me or did something happen to me from the ambien that wont physically go away or damaged me? all of this started that night, the day before, i felt normal and happy and now i feel stuck like this. pleass offer me some useful and positive advice, that isnt just , go do something that you like or calm down. believe me i tryed that.