I'm 15, but I act really young. Most of my friends are girls because i first moved into the school with a friend who is a girl and started hanging around her friends who were also girls, when i should have approached the guys. Now I only have like 5 close guy friends.
I am really close to my mother as my dad was never around (always travelling) and now I feel like a mommy's boy wussy when I don't want to be. I don't feel I act feminine, I always think that i'm just being an immature person and I act like a 5 year old but people mistake that for being 'gay'.
My mom had a talk with me and said, you need a male role model - your turning into a man and you need a male role model to become a man...and I love hollywood and all that and eventually want to get into hollywood so all my supposed male models are actors. I never actually had girl role models, but I liked 3 of these famous female celebrities who I was interested in, and I think my mom is worried I'll grow up to a homo who has no kids.
The truth is, I want to get married, have kids - I don't want to be gay! (I just find it really sad, I'm sorry - but people say I act 'gay'...) I love hip hop dancing, and maybe that's considered feminine I don't know, and I really need help. I honestly want to be a 'MAN' and act 'manly' but i feel like i only look up to women, when i need to look up to guys..HELP ME PLEASE I NEED HELP. I want more guy friends but i only do like high fives and stuff, but i don't use words like 'bro, dude, wassup, how you going mate' i mean i just don't feel comfortable doing that, and also i'm not used to grabbing their hand and giving a chest hug thing. what should i do?
...this is why i shouldn't ask questions on ya, because no one ever takes questions seriously. Thanks alot you guys, thanks.
