...feel about him, but...?!? Ok, so I have this best friend, Kevin... We're both 17, and we've been friends since we were 4. We're extremely close... like, nobody even understands how close we are. He knows me better than anyone else... even my own parents. Well, he's slept over my house a TON since we became friends, (on the couch in my room, but usually ends up falling asleep in my bed with me watching tv) and my mom trusts us. A few months ago, Kevin told me that he thought he might be gay, and I was fine with it; I have no problem with homosexuals. Well, he's really into singing and recording, and on Saturday night, he was sleeping over, and we were up in my room, and he showed me his new song, and it had this really strong beat and kind of suggestive lyrics. Now, I've NEVER had any sexual feelings towards him, but that song turned me on. I wanted him; bad (lol.)
He asked me what I thought, and I said "I'm thinking if you weren't gay, I would be on top of you right now..." and laughed. He responded "Well I'm thinking I'm bi, because I would thoroughly enjoy that," and smiled at me. So I said "Seriously?" He nodded, and I moved closer to him, like almost on his lap, and kissed him on the lips, and then raised my eyebrows and said "Yeah?" And he nodded, and starting kissing me. I climbed onto his lap, and he pulled off my shirt... one thing led to another, and we actually ended up having sex... like REALLY amazing sex. Afterwards, it was a bit weird, but we're fine, because we're super close. Well, after that, we had sex three more times throughout this week... and every time it's really amazing. Well, I never had any of these kinds of feelings for him before, but since Saturday, I've been thinking that even though now I have this sexual attraction to him, I wouldn't want to officially date him... just because I thought that even though I love him (as my best friend), I could never be IN love with him... But some people have said that I should try dating him because it could be really amazing...
Well, Friday, we had sex for the fifth time, and keeping what everyone said in mind during it, I now think I could be in love with him (As in: I might be, NOW.) Last night, he was sleeping over, and my parents were out until 10 pm or so shopping. Around 6 pm, Kevin was showing me more of his new music, which is a lot like the other song he showed me... it turned me on... So we ended up having sex again... from around 6 until 9... I definately think I'm in love with him, so after we were finished, we were laying in my bed, and I had my head on his chest, and I told him, "Kevin, I think I love you..." and he said "Really?" and I nodded, and he said "Good, cuz I don't want to share you with anyone," and wrapped his arms around me and pulled me closer. He started kissing me, and we pretty much made out until almost 10, and fell asleep. I thought my heart was gonna burst out of me.
But I'm confused about what he said after I told him I loved him... Does he love me, too? Does he want to date me, too? What did he mean? I'm just confused... And what should I do about all this... I know we shouldn't have kept having sex, but... I just couldn't help myself... :/ Any advice would be good.
Thanks.
He asked me what I thought, and I said "I'm thinking if you weren't gay, I would be on top of you right now..." and laughed. He responded "Well I'm thinking I'm bi, because I would thoroughly enjoy that," and smiled at me. So I said "Seriously?" He nodded, and I moved closer to him, like almost on his lap, and kissed him on the lips, and then raised my eyebrows and said "Yeah?" And he nodded, and starting kissing me. I climbed onto his lap, and he pulled off my shirt... one thing led to another, and we actually ended up having sex... like REALLY amazing sex. Afterwards, it was a bit weird, but we're fine, because we're super close. Well, after that, we had sex three more times throughout this week... and every time it's really amazing. Well, I never had any of these kinds of feelings for him before, but since Saturday, I've been thinking that even though now I have this sexual attraction to him, I wouldn't want to officially date him... just because I thought that even though I love him (as my best friend), I could never be IN love with him... But some people have said that I should try dating him because it could be really amazing...
Well, Friday, we had sex for the fifth time, and keeping what everyone said in mind during it, I now think I could be in love with him (As in: I might be, NOW.) Last night, he was sleeping over, and my parents were out until 10 pm or so shopping. Around 6 pm, Kevin was showing me more of his new music, which is a lot like the other song he showed me... it turned me on... So we ended up having sex again... from around 6 until 9... I definately think I'm in love with him, so after we were finished, we were laying in my bed, and I had my head on his chest, and I told him, "Kevin, I think I love you..." and he said "Really?" and I nodded, and he said "Good, cuz I don't want to share you with anyone," and wrapped his arms around me and pulled me closer. He started kissing me, and we pretty much made out until almost 10, and fell asleep. I thought my heart was gonna burst out of me.
But I'm confused about what he said after I told him I loved him... Does he love me, too? Does he want to date me, too? What did he mean? I'm just confused... And what should I do about all this... I know we shouldn't have kept having sex, but... I just couldn't help myself... :/ Any advice would be good.Thanks.