Hi! Please can anyone help me?
I started getting a spotty back two years ago, and it's been getting worse ever since. My skin scars really easily and even though my back isn't completely covered in spots, it looks like it just because of all the scars. I've found some info. on acne, and it all says not to pick spots and to get special products from the chemists to put on the skin to help it go away. My trouble is that even though I hate having such a horibble back, I can't stop myself from picking

=/ . I'm 15 and I hate not having a choice of tops to wear, just because I don't want anyone to see my shoulders or back. I feel like my back will never get better, and it's ruining my confidence. If a boy asked me out I could never be serious about a relationship because I'd just be worrying about what he'd say if he ever saw my back.
The problem with having a spots on my back is that I have been able to hide them - no one knows. If it were on my face, people would know my problem and it wouldn't be so hard to ask for help.
It's probably a good idea to go and see a doctor about it. I don't know who my doctor is though. And if I did get the courage to tell them, I think they'd make me feel really bad about leaving it for so long and letting it get this bad. Plus they'd have to see my back and there's no one who sees my body apart from me... that's just the way I am, I don't like my body, and I only ever let me see it (no short sleeves, no shorts, no 3/4 length trousers, no low neck/back tops).. so letting a doctor see my body is just something I can't really imagine. I guess I'm a private person.
It's got so bad I can't remeraber when I had a clear back.. and it's something that, now I'm 15 and getting more aware of how I look, is really really affecting me... in a bad way. Now I think I'll never have a nice back again, just because it'll be scarred. I've tried the scar reduction plasters for some other scars I have, but they are very expensive and wouldn't be practicle on such a large area as my back.
I don't know what to do... please help.
*hugs* thanku
emma x