On April the 28th my girlfriend starting making my life a living hell.
At first it was small, an odd name here and there, an insult, just normal scraps between couples I spose.
But it escalated. And soon it was hell. It got to the stage where every month I wanted to leave, it was just I had no money to go anywhere and I didn't know where to go.
Last month, she was being cruel to me, so cruel that it was despicable. It wasn't physical or anything, it was just arguing all the time, her taking everyones side but mine, using her worthless excuse of a family to support her arguements and so on, and on my payday, even after I had given her almost half my wages(I had got a job that month, FINALLY
) she carried on, and I snapped. I kicked in the front rooms door, chucked a packet of sweets and her and screamed at her like mad, before packing my bags and getting ready to leave. She calmed down and started crying, and I hugged her and said I would unpack and stay. She left with her sister to cool off for a few hours at hers, and I left anyways.
It was about 4 hours before she called me in my hotel room, repeatedly. I texted her back and forth saying I hated what she had done to me, that I wouldn't just make up and be her bitch. The next day I woke up, and I was calmer, and she rang me and I picked up, and she begged me to come back, crying and wailing and I did. But I came back, because I had left some bank documents/ID at the house, and I ended up staying, and this past month she has been about a thousand times nicer to me.
But I've been having nightmares for over a week, every night. and although part of me has forgiven her I can't do it completely. I was gone, and now this next pay day is coming up I am heavily conflicted, and confused. I think I may be a bit depressed, and part of me says I should get to the doctors, get anti depressants, then pack up and leave. What should I do? Should I give her this LAST chance? I told her when I was coming back she would have to change, only nothing has really changed except her behaviour and I expect it to revert back soon.
At first it was small, an odd name here and there, an insult, just normal scraps between couples I spose.
But it escalated. And soon it was hell. It got to the stage where every month I wanted to leave, it was just I had no money to go anywhere and I didn't know where to go.
Last month, she was being cruel to me, so cruel that it was despicable. It wasn't physical or anything, it was just arguing all the time, her taking everyones side but mine, using her worthless excuse of a family to support her arguements and so on, and on my payday, even after I had given her almost half my wages(I had got a job that month, FINALLY
) she carried on, and I snapped. I kicked in the front rooms door, chucked a packet of sweets and her and screamed at her like mad, before packing my bags and getting ready to leave. She calmed down and started crying, and I hugged her and said I would unpack and stay. She left with her sister to cool off for a few hours at hers, and I left anyways.It was about 4 hours before she called me in my hotel room, repeatedly. I texted her back and forth saying I hated what she had done to me, that I wouldn't just make up and be her bitch. The next day I woke up, and I was calmer, and she rang me and I picked up, and she begged me to come back, crying and wailing and I did. But I came back, because I had left some bank documents/ID at the house, and I ended up staying, and this past month she has been about a thousand times nicer to me.
But I've been having nightmares for over a week, every night. and although part of me has forgiven her I can't do it completely. I was gone, and now this next pay day is coming up I am heavily conflicted, and confused. I think I may be a bit depressed, and part of me says I should get to the doctors, get anti depressants, then pack up and leave. What should I do? Should I give her this LAST chance? I told her when I was coming back she would have to change, only nothing has really changed except her behaviour and I expect it to revert back soon.