Lil' Eskimo
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...habit i developed? since i was little i used to pick at my fingers when i got scabs and such, usually pulling off the scab. as i got older i started pulling at healthy skin tearing little bits of. older still, it got to a point where i was basicly ripping my fingers apart down to muscle (ok maybe not that far but it hurt like a bitch if a feather touched it) and they would start bleeding.
I have started learning to control myself but my right index finger (on and above top knuckle) is now scar-like tissue where its always red, no pain at all, but is fleshy like healthy skin. im assuming thats as far as it will heal now. the same thing applies to the side of my left thumb. Other spots here and there on all fingers are currently hard scar tissue/scab like which i have a tendency to pick at.
Is this a form of self-mutilation (not cutting), a mental disease, or is this a habit-like thing i developed from pulling scabs?? i usually start picking more when im stressed/nervous. could i be using the pain from the picking to distract me from the stressors of life?? im an 18 yr guy if thats useful in some way.
I have started learning to control myself but my right index finger (on and above top knuckle) is now scar-like tissue where its always red, no pain at all, but is fleshy like healthy skin. im assuming thats as far as it will heal now. the same thing applies to the side of my left thumb. Other spots here and there on all fingers are currently hard scar tissue/scab like which i have a tendency to pick at.
Is this a form of self-mutilation (not cutting), a mental disease, or is this a habit-like thing i developed from pulling scabs?? i usually start picking more when im stressed/nervous. could i be using the pain from the picking to distract me from the stressors of life?? im an 18 yr guy if thats useful in some way.