constant headaches & mood swings.What? I really would like to know what this is so here is more information. Please help.
I keep hearing/seeing things. Im a really paranoid person so i always think there's someone there with me but i can't see them and i feel like they're going to like just attack me out of the bloom or they're going to like hurt me and i keep feeling a pair of eyes on me but they're not exist and when i hear the voices i turn around to see if anything or anyone is there but there isnt and then i'll hear like a laugh or something making me even more paranoid than before...and i really dont like being paranoid or seeing and hearing things cause now im afraid of the dark ( yeah i know right; how kiddish) cause when i see shadows they instantly turn into things and sometimes those things will take a form of a human and the thing will keep looking at me with a sinister look;and then once i pulled the sheets over my head and close my eyes tightly i can still see things and then i'll start to hear things. my ma told me that my great grandma was able to see things and hear things other people didn't,and then she told me that i was always saying things when i was a younger like that there's someone right there but then when my parents looked over they'd see nothing or that i always complained that i heard people's voices in my head but there was no one in the real world to have those voices. Also my mom told me i was always close to my great grandma until she died, she then told me that after the death of my great grandma that i've become more shyer and more distant from the real world. I've try telling my mom whenever we're alone but she just says its nothing that i just have the same thing my great grandma did. I actually would really like to know what this is,but i don't even know why i posted this here cause someone is probably just going to tell me that im crazy and i should go to a mental clinic. well i actually would like to talk to my doctor about this but im too shy and i dont like getting asked questions about my state of mind and my personal life cause then they'll tell my ma and papa and then they might want me to go to therapy but i dont like therapy it actually makes me feel shit and that im worthless. I had to go to therapy in school when i was in 3rd grade to 5th because i guess something happened (i dont really remember) i think my therapy sessions started right after i got back from my great grandma's funeral or something. i've always had a shot temper so maybe it was that? maybe my quick mood swings that would happen everyday? the distant i kept from the rest of the class and teachers? my paranoia? my constant headaches? There's actually quite a lot of things i probably had to go to therapy for. I don't know why but even sometimes I remember just staying in the person's office for almost the whole school day; just crying or talking about my past or playing games, i really would like to remember my child hood better but my brain actually seemed to have blocked that out from my memory like everything else from my childhood. The therapist lady was always nice to me she'd usually just let me stay in her office for hours to let me sleep but then if i went there i knew i had to at least talk with her about things or else i couldnt stay there.. but really it was all uncomfortable for me to discuss my past and life with a person i hardly knew. i always try to remember;she had told me stuff about herself and her life but i could never recall what it is. I guess her telling me more about herself and her lifestyle made me less paranoid about her and actually more comfortable to stay there and just cry and talk to her for hours till i actually had to go back to class. She usually gave me passes so when ever i felt like to talk or that i was stress i could go down to her office. I want to talk to this with my parents ( mostly mom) but i dont know how to bring it up. any ideas on how to? I would ask her later but i dont know if im ever going to get the chance to cause i have to go into boston for the hospital. should i talk to my doctor about this when i go there? Would they send me to a psychiatrist? Is there anyways not to actually have to talk to the doctor about this? Can i just like take a test or survey thingy about it? Well it would be nice if someone were to actually read this and still talk to me and answer the questions i asked or at least help me to get an idea of what to do about this situation cause this really is effecting my daily life and its hard to concentrate on the real world when i have this going on.
Is there a chance of it being Paranoid Schizophrenia?
I keep hearing/seeing things. Im a really paranoid person so i always think there's someone there with me but i can't see them and i feel like they're going to like just attack me out of the bloom or they're going to like hurt me and i keep feeling a pair of eyes on me but they're not exist and when i hear the voices i turn around to see if anything or anyone is there but there isnt and then i'll hear like a laugh or something making me even more paranoid than before...and i really dont like being paranoid or seeing and hearing things cause now im afraid of the dark ( yeah i know right; how kiddish) cause when i see shadows they instantly turn into things and sometimes those things will take a form of a human and the thing will keep looking at me with a sinister look;and then once i pulled the sheets over my head and close my eyes tightly i can still see things and then i'll start to hear things. my ma told me that my great grandma was able to see things and hear things other people didn't,and then she told me that i was always saying things when i was a younger like that there's someone right there but then when my parents looked over they'd see nothing or that i always complained that i heard people's voices in my head but there was no one in the real world to have those voices. Also my mom told me i was always close to my great grandma until she died, she then told me that after the death of my great grandma that i've become more shyer and more distant from the real world. I've try telling my mom whenever we're alone but she just says its nothing that i just have the same thing my great grandma did. I actually would really like to know what this is,but i don't even know why i posted this here cause someone is probably just going to tell me that im crazy and i should go to a mental clinic. well i actually would like to talk to my doctor about this but im too shy and i dont like getting asked questions about my state of mind and my personal life cause then they'll tell my ma and papa and then they might want me to go to therapy but i dont like therapy it actually makes me feel shit and that im worthless. I had to go to therapy in school when i was in 3rd grade to 5th because i guess something happened (i dont really remember) i think my therapy sessions started right after i got back from my great grandma's funeral or something. i've always had a shot temper so maybe it was that? maybe my quick mood swings that would happen everyday? the distant i kept from the rest of the class and teachers? my paranoia? my constant headaches? There's actually quite a lot of things i probably had to go to therapy for. I don't know why but even sometimes I remember just staying in the person's office for almost the whole school day; just crying or talking about my past or playing games, i really would like to remember my child hood better but my brain actually seemed to have blocked that out from my memory like everything else from my childhood. The therapist lady was always nice to me she'd usually just let me stay in her office for hours to let me sleep but then if i went there i knew i had to at least talk with her about things or else i couldnt stay there.. but really it was all uncomfortable for me to discuss my past and life with a person i hardly knew. i always try to remember;she had told me stuff about herself and her life but i could never recall what it is. I guess her telling me more about herself and her lifestyle made me less paranoid about her and actually more comfortable to stay there and just cry and talk to her for hours till i actually had to go back to class. She usually gave me passes so when ever i felt like to talk or that i was stress i could go down to her office. I want to talk to this with my parents ( mostly mom) but i dont know how to bring it up. any ideas on how to? I would ask her later but i dont know if im ever going to get the chance to cause i have to go into boston for the hospital. should i talk to my doctor about this when i go there? Would they send me to a psychiatrist? Is there anyways not to actually have to talk to the doctor about this? Can i just like take a test or survey thingy about it? Well it would be nice if someone were to actually read this and still talk to me and answer the questions i asked or at least help me to get an idea of what to do about this situation cause this really is effecting my daily life and its hard to concentrate on the real world when i have this going on.
Is there a chance of it being Paranoid Schizophrenia?