I have too big...ego

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koriek361

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Title tells it. I dont know where the fuck this come from. I look ordinary,normal height and weight..etc..Maybe i just think that im intellectually better than many other so i just cant identify myself to social mass, who i consider to be animal like..like wild hyenas or something.

I have become so fucking lazy cause i have started to think that all little matters are insignificant for the bigger cause..and then bigger cause..wtf is it.Well, there is no fucking bigger cause so everything have started to feel insignificant.. Cause we all wise egoist hedonist rationalist agnistics know very well that existence of god is uncertain and therefore the teachings of bible,koran and talmud are very questionable.

Everything just feels so vain.Big institutions like religions are based on myth yet it holds big power on many people. Idiots are ruling big countries.

Im not particularly racist but this extreme multiculturalism is fucking depressing. Also (my fucking big ego does it) i always judge peoples looks,whether they are too old,too young,too ugly,too fucking ugly..etc Im normal looking myself and in all standards just normal but my ego is fucking super gigantic..


There was some of my bitching for starters.
 
Would it hurt your ego if I told you that your English skills make your intellect look obsolete?

No, I'm just kidding, I can understand the language problems. You've already explained that.

Anyway, what do you mean about your ego? Is it just with religious society or are you talking about yourself as a whole?
 
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Even tiny little things irritates me greatly and if somebody isnt doing like i would imagine it would be done bestly, i get mad...bad temper..Like i would think im the king or something..Trust me..i wouldnt want to think this egoistic but i guess its in my genes or something.

If some people talks or looks wrong in my opinion..and many seem to do..I immediately start to despise them and cannot relate to them properly..Inside me, i feel that what a low piece shit.


Another thing that has started to feel unpleasent is smalltalk..It just feels so unnecessary with many people.

Clearly i know that my problem is just too big ego but cause i can recognize it so well myself and dont like this feauture i think it is genetic..something that isnt up to me and how ive lived my life this far.
 
Well the fact that you know all this and admit it makes you less egotistical than most of the fucking assholes that don't.

As far as ego goes, confidence is fine. But cockiness is a path to the dark side.
 
Lol..Yes,my intellect, when thinking in english is wholely a different story.


Im talking me about me and the society. Where the society is based on - to christianity that is myth - and where democrazy have come - from christianity. I mean everything seem to be based on myth and idioticy. This depresses me. Everything feels so idiotic,childish and vain.


And as a sidenote.I dont have anykind of religious backround, i havent had bad childhood. This fucking dark country is just so depressing. I dont know whether its morning or night cause its dark all the time.
 
Thats true.

I dont behave like i think. I always behave friendly but inside i can rage that what a low piece of shit,scumbag wasting my time.

I also hate insolent people 2 times more than i hare ordinary shmucks cause i think they are just shmucks gone crazy..Like same scumbags with bad attitude..see the pattern..Like i think,im above everyone. This kind of superiority complex even sickens me but its just problem i have.
 
Yeah,i couldnt focus my english when my heart dictated the writing. ;) Im finnish so my english is what it is.

Anyway, good to hear that theres some other gigantic egoists out there. If you like to share your thoughts,please.
 
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