I have O.C.D

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I have recently admitted or finally convinced that I should say something that I have horrible O.C.D.

I have found a list of sites, and they describe so many of the problems.

  • Fear of contamination or dirt
  • Repeated doubts
  • Having things orderly and symmetrical
  • Aggressive or horrific impulses
  • Sexual images

I am constantly trying to stay clean, I am constantly making sure things are done in even numbers, I am constantly repeating things over again in even numbers too, I have to have people give me assurance or I find a reason for them to tell me its going to be ok. I have horrific thoughts at night that keep me up, or do things to keep thoughts off of my head by counting in two's.

I have a hard time opening doors, I am always making sure my lights are off. I memorize ingredients in almost everything with a label, I can't walk on cracks, I have intense distress when objects aren't orderly, lined up properly or facing the right way, I have Impulses to shout obscenities in inappropriate situations, I have been picking the nails off of my fingers until I bleed and I have to wash my hands ridiculous amounts.

I have been giving myself a lot of stress over school and I keep fucking saying things twice in a row.. look at some of my posts.


Sorry for the long and boring read, but I have to tell someone and I want to tell my mom but I don't think she will believe me.

and I constantly have to edit things. Even old posts.
 
You should go to a doctor and get diagnosed before you come to conclusions, but you've seemed to research enough about it and you know yourself more than anyone.

I'm slightly obsessive compulsive... not to the point of desperation, but you know. Everything has to be in odd numbers for me (I guess I'm a freaking weirdo or something). I brush my teeth a certain way, try to get a sleep schedule, try to eat around the same times, I have to practice music as much as possible... every rock instrument, at least an hour each. When things are disorganized or dirty, I get kind of irked, but lately if I cleaned I would have to clean up every hour.

It's tough when you first discover there's something "wrong" with you, but you have to try to make it a good thing. I mean, there's lots of negatives, but at least you're organized, clean, and live life a certain way. At least you're not some useless druggie wasting his life away as much as possible. If you are, well, you're still cool.
 
Just make sure you don't let it start to rule your life and you will be okay. OCD is one of the most fascinating disorders out there. I think I have a touch of it. Most of what I do at work is pretty detail oriented so it's an advantage most of the time.
 
I'm kinda the same way admittedly, although I am not organized in the least, and I don't seem to have it to the same extent that you do. I have a fear of germs or other biomatter. I've been this way for years. I hate it. The most effective thing I found is to focus on ignoring urges and thoughts, etc... Nobody else needs to wash their hands constantly, so why should I? Just remember that nobody else feels the need to do this stuff, so you can safely ignore such urges. Just keep repeating that to yourself.
 
I got diagnosed with OCD when I was about 12 years old. They tried all sorts of crazy treatments and drugs. It just seemed the more they tried the worse my OCD became. I got so obsessed with cleanliness that I would walk into any house (friend or acquaintance) and just start cleaning. I wouldn't use the same towel as somebody, soap bar, eat after anyone...

I went as far as doing tasks in intervals of five. I would snap my fingers five times, tap my feet five times, eat only 5 cookies. OCD is a bitch Chad.

Anyways...after about 6 years of constant cleaning and clean freakiness I got fed up. One day I was all stressed out about everything being so dirty and unsafe that one of my buddies told me to smoke a joint with him and relax. TAH DAH!!!!! It worked...I didn't give a shit about being clean, how straight things were and I even drank after someone else. So I went to my doctor and told him that I smoked some marijuana and it seemed to help with the compulsiveness. So he told me..."Joe, just between you and me if marijuana is going to help you with this disease I think you should continue to use it."

So...smoke some weed Chad...doctor recommended.
 
Chad, don't be worried to tell your mom. thats probably the worst thing you can do. if you feel like you are having troubles controlling the habits, tell her. she might be able to get you some kind of help. i have OCD and i never went to get help. my mom knew about it though and she tried to help me when she saw i was going through a hard time with it. i have OCD mixed with a very minor case of tourettes. it's not easy, but with help from my mom these years i've been better. just let her know and tell her you'd like to get help if its possible.
 
Two people have already mentioned it but seriously, smoke some of the Cheeba(weed).
Your OCD is an extreme case of tightass, weed has an anti-tightass chemical called THC.
 
Do you mean CDO? It has to be in order. I'm just joking, but I have a minor case of OCD. I do things in intervals of 7, the dishwasher and refridgerator have to be in order, but not when it comes to my personal things, like my room or locker. I guess I'm just weird T.T
 
Wow that explains a LOT!

Chad.

Just smoke more pot in the evenings.

:D

IM JOKING!!!!

Talk to your parents and your doctor. If it is distressing you and you keep it quiet you will explode.
 
I do those same things as well...Like even at one point I had an extra dollor and it wasn't an even number and so I gave it to ryuu. I've done that multiple times before. x.x'' I hope I don't have OCD....

It's unfortunate for you though. I agree with your deicision you might wanna' tell someone..
 
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