Emma's mommy
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...don't know what to do.? I am 23 and in October 2009, I was raped and ever since, I've been abusing my prescription medication. I have landed myself in Intensive care Unit and I've been in 2 coma's over the past few months. I have been in the hospital about a dozen times and the police and ambulance have been here more times than I can count.
I can't really explain why, but I've just had it. I have pills with me at home, and I am addicted to them. I was in the hospital last Wednesday/Thursday and I just want to take all of them and I don't know what to do.
I want to be left alone and just take the pills. I had to drink Charcoal last week, and than I was in cardiology, because my heart rate was too fast and than I had to see a psychiatrist. And when I'm in the hospital, I just shut out all my emotions and I look fine. I don't cry or I'm not sad. I'm just emotionless
I don't usually care what people think regarding all my overdoses, what the police, EMT's or family thinks. I just do it.. But I don't want the police or EMT's to come here again and judge me or whatever it may be. I just want to overdose and take all of them. I don't know what to do. I can't stop. I know I am addicted and I am in therapy for the addiction and it's just hopeless
I can't really explain why, but I've just had it. I have pills with me at home, and I am addicted to them. I was in the hospital last Wednesday/Thursday and I just want to take all of them and I don't know what to do.
I want to be left alone and just take the pills. I had to drink Charcoal last week, and than I was in cardiology, because my heart rate was too fast and than I had to see a psychiatrist. And when I'm in the hospital, I just shut out all my emotions and I look fine. I don't cry or I'm not sad. I'm just emotionless
I don't usually care what people think regarding all my overdoses, what the police, EMT's or family thinks. I just do it.. But I don't want the police or EMT's to come here again and judge me or whatever it may be. I just want to overdose and take all of them. I don't know what to do. I can't stop. I know I am addicted and I am in therapy for the addiction and it's just hopeless