I first met my bf last year when we shared a flat. Now we're going out and I really trust him and love him.
I have a past and I'm afraid to tell him about it, but if I don't, someone else might.
About two months before I met him, I was raped by my friend's cousin. I was his English tutor...
I'm from an ultra-religious family so it was all quickly covered up and no-one knew of the incident besides my family and my close friends.
Then I trusted a particular guy friend. He'd walk me to and back from uni because I was completely paranoid and felt unsafe. He was one of the first people I ran to after the first incident.
I treated him as a brother but he also breached my trust. I got heavily drunk (I don't drink at all) and passed out. The next morning I woke up naked in his bed. He just laughed when I freaked out, and caught me a taxi home.
If there are any men out there reading this, I need to know how my bf will react when I tell him.
Will he think I was hiding all this? I really truly trust him but I'm also afraid that he'll freak out and leave me. And I really do love him.
Would appreciate your replies.
And please, this is all very serious, I'd rather not have people condemning me or making fun of me.
I have a past and I'm afraid to tell him about it, but if I don't, someone else might.
About two months before I met him, I was raped by my friend's cousin. I was his English tutor...
I'm from an ultra-religious family so it was all quickly covered up and no-one knew of the incident besides my family and my close friends.
Then I trusted a particular guy friend. He'd walk me to and back from uni because I was completely paranoid and felt unsafe. He was one of the first people I ran to after the first incident.
I treated him as a brother but he also breached my trust. I got heavily drunk (I don't drink at all) and passed out. The next morning I woke up naked in his bed. He just laughed when I freaked out, and caught me a taxi home.
If there are any men out there reading this, I need to know how my bf will react when I tell him.
Will he think I was hiding all this? I really truly trust him but I'm also afraid that he'll freak out and leave me. And I really do love him.
Would appreciate your replies.
And please, this is all very serious, I'd rather not have people condemning me or making fun of me.