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Jewel
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I’m a senior and my teacher and I grew so much closer together. I have no idea how old he is but if I were to take a guess maybe his late thirties. I have a major problem. Please help. Below are some more details.
Last year, I had a crazy sexy dream. We were in a hotel room and I was teasing him, stripping my clothes off and making him almost delirious. We had sex and I never knew I could feel so much emotion in a dream. It was vivid, and almost scary. I woke up wishing my sex life in reality would be just as good and risqué.
Then, senior year started and I was working on my first Physics project. I stayed afterschool because I couldn’t finish building it in time. He came over to me and asked if I needed help. He insisted, and he sat right next to me. I smelled his spicy, tantalizing cologne and his knees constantly rubbed onto mine. He offered me more material than other students to build the project, and allowed me to go over the weight limit for the project. This was so intimate, because I felt as if I had the qualities that made him want to give me more advantages than other students.
Another time was when my Physics grade was dropping to an A-, and I asked him how I could raise my grade. He said I needed to “perform extra credit.” I then asked, “How?” and he said, “Surprise me.” We continued to flirt and it felt so wrong yet good. Call it unethical, immoral, whatever you want to describe it like, but I can’t bear the thought of not seeing him after I graduate. That night, I had the hottest, wettest, craziest dream about him and I felt his tongue all over my body and it felt so good and right.
The ironic thing is, as if he knew that I dreamt about him, the next day, we had a science experiment. We were researching about TONGUES and various stuff about it. He wanted to use my tongue as an example for this experiment. I was secretly shocked. We locked eye contact and it was pretty intense.
Also, this happened a couple of days ago. I was staying after in his class to finish an assignment he gave me. I was late to my next class and I asked him to write a note for my next teacher. He wrote "She was with me." and he signed his name, looking up at me and smiling with half his lips wide open. Maybe it's just my imagination but that felt so dominant and sexy, it made me want to stay the rest of the period in there.
Anyhow, we text each other but only for messages like, “Merry Christmas,” or “Happy New Year.” We also call but that’s only if I need help on a problem. I really badly, want to expand my relationship with him and get even closer before I never see him again. But he has a fiancé and a job, and I know the risk I would be taking. Should I just keep this fantasy level? Or mention it to him? Because I know he probably does like me better than his other students based on how he is treating me. However, I really don’t want to tarnish his reputation because our school is so small people are bound to find out. Plus, my boyfriends are usually at least a couple of years older than me. Could it just be me wanting someone who could control my rash impulses more? I just want to know your thoughts on my position right now, as it is very stressful. I would love to hear from someone thoughtful and insightful. I don’t mind criticism. I just want to hear all of your opinions. Thank you!
Last year, I had a crazy sexy dream. We were in a hotel room and I was teasing him, stripping my clothes off and making him almost delirious. We had sex and I never knew I could feel so much emotion in a dream. It was vivid, and almost scary. I woke up wishing my sex life in reality would be just as good and risqué.
Then, senior year started and I was working on my first Physics project. I stayed afterschool because I couldn’t finish building it in time. He came over to me and asked if I needed help. He insisted, and he sat right next to me. I smelled his spicy, tantalizing cologne and his knees constantly rubbed onto mine. He offered me more material than other students to build the project, and allowed me to go over the weight limit for the project. This was so intimate, because I felt as if I had the qualities that made him want to give me more advantages than other students.
Another time was when my Physics grade was dropping to an A-, and I asked him how I could raise my grade. He said I needed to “perform extra credit.” I then asked, “How?” and he said, “Surprise me.” We continued to flirt and it felt so wrong yet good. Call it unethical, immoral, whatever you want to describe it like, but I can’t bear the thought of not seeing him after I graduate. That night, I had the hottest, wettest, craziest dream about him and I felt his tongue all over my body and it felt so good and right.
The ironic thing is, as if he knew that I dreamt about him, the next day, we had a science experiment. We were researching about TONGUES and various stuff about it. He wanted to use my tongue as an example for this experiment. I was secretly shocked. We locked eye contact and it was pretty intense.
Also, this happened a couple of days ago. I was staying after in his class to finish an assignment he gave me. I was late to my next class and I asked him to write a note for my next teacher. He wrote "She was with me." and he signed his name, looking up at me and smiling with half his lips wide open. Maybe it's just my imagination but that felt so dominant and sexy, it made me want to stay the rest of the period in there.
Anyhow, we text each other but only for messages like, “Merry Christmas,” or “Happy New Year.” We also call but that’s only if I need help on a problem. I really badly, want to expand my relationship with him and get even closer before I never see him again. But he has a fiancé and a job, and I know the risk I would be taking. Should I just keep this fantasy level? Or mention it to him? Because I know he probably does like me better than his other students based on how he is treating me. However, I really don’t want to tarnish his reputation because our school is so small people are bound to find out. Plus, my boyfriends are usually at least a couple of years older than me. Could it just be me wanting someone who could control my rash impulses more? I just want to know your thoughts on my position right now, as it is very stressful. I would love to hear from someone thoughtful and insightful. I don’t mind criticism. I just want to hear all of your opinions. Thank you!