number one you totally set yourself up, so stop saying i promised i wouldnt think about if you were a fly, ur dead in 2 days, shit we live 100 years, and we have the best sex lives get drunk etc. so why would you wanna kill yourself taht is just STUBBARN and selfish shit thats bull shit, your broke up with him for a reason so he probaly was doing a little pay back welcome to reality, go fuck one of his friends, dont be selfish life is da shit, LIVE_Love_Faith