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Ideally I wouldn't be asking for advice here but because I can't think of anybody to confide in and because I'm so disgusted with my actions I need to ask.
Earlier on today my boyfriends brother dropped by to return some stuff he borrowed from my bf. I've always got on well with him and I may as well admit I've always thought he was cute. I'm also well aware that he's found me attractive, there have been some awkward moments between us over the 3 years I've been with my bf. Anyhow I invited him in we chatted for ages and as he was about to leave we ended up kissing, one thing led to another and we had sex. I'm totally confused now I mean I know what I did was horrible and inexcusable but honestly it felt so right. The thing is this guy's married and I know this'll never go any further, in fact he probably just used me for sex. Since he left he's sent me a few messages indicating he really enjoyed earlier & would like to hook up again.
The thing is my bf is due home from work in the next hour and I don't know what to do. He's got a pretty bad temper and so I know telling him may not be the safest option for me personally. Should I never tell a soul about this & hope my bf & I can get back on track? I'm such a mixture of emotions right now I feel disgusted with myself but also I kind of enjoyed it. I also know it's not nice to betray somebody and I'm riddled with guilt for the hurt my bf would experience if he knew what we'd done. My bf has indicated recently that he sees us settling down sooner rather than later & he's clear he want to marry me. What should I do?
Earlier on today my boyfriends brother dropped by to return some stuff he borrowed from my bf. I've always got on well with him and I may as well admit I've always thought he was cute. I'm also well aware that he's found me attractive, there have been some awkward moments between us over the 3 years I've been with my bf. Anyhow I invited him in we chatted for ages and as he was about to leave we ended up kissing, one thing led to another and we had sex. I'm totally confused now I mean I know what I did was horrible and inexcusable but honestly it felt so right. The thing is this guy's married and I know this'll never go any further, in fact he probably just used me for sex. Since he left he's sent me a few messages indicating he really enjoyed earlier & would like to hook up again.
The thing is my bf is due home from work in the next hour and I don't know what to do. He's got a pretty bad temper and so I know telling him may not be the safest option for me personally. Should I never tell a soul about this & hope my bf & I can get back on track? I'm such a mixture of emotions right now I feel disgusted with myself but also I kind of enjoyed it. I also know it's not nice to betray somebody and I'm riddled with guilt for the hurt my bf would experience if he knew what we'd done. My bf has indicated recently that he sees us settling down sooner rather than later & he's clear he want to marry me. What should I do?