I fucking hate Long Island, I fucking hate my friends, I hate my fucking life.

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Danish Deshmukh

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I just awoke from this really horrible dream.

In the dream, I get home, go to my basement, and see that Adam is down there. He recently moved to california.

I was like "Dude! I thought you moved!"

He said "Nope, the date was wrong, I didnt move yet."

There were other things in the dream but basically I ask him if he will ever move back and he said "Nope, never dude."

I ended up yelling at my mom for moving to Long Island at the end of it.

It made me realize the following:

1. I really kinda worshipped Adam's friendship on a higher level than my other friends, even though we are distant. And now I realize why. Even though our friendship died and just started to get rekindled before he moved, he was an amazing person who had everything in common with me and didn't do drugs.

2. I really fucking miss Adam.

3. I fucking hate drugs. I had that six month period where I smoked pot every day, rolled on ecstasy six times (large binges mind you), robotripped, tried coke (fuck coke), and by the end of it, realized none of that shit was me.

4. I have the biggest identity crisis ever because I hang around people that do drugs. And the peer pressure is retarded.

5. I prop my life up by lying to myself and not giving a shit about anything. I apparently got this trait from Eric, who I no longer associate with because he stole $2000 from me.

6. My two best friends, who I love dearly, need to do far more than get fucked up every day for me to have fun with them. They've gotten better though.

7. I want more geek friends. I fucking hate the druggies. Druggie+Geek is fine though.

8. I miss Adam.

9. Did I mention Adam had a fetish for old DOS games like me and had everything in common and didn't do drugs?

10. I fucking hate Long Island. I'd need to room with someone anyway cause I'm poor and work at RadioShack (After a year I'll be in IT), but holy FUCK it is an expensive, oppressive shithole here.

11. I fucking hate the people on Long Island. They are either fake, rich, pretentious assholes or ghetto douchebags. Very little middle class.

12. I wanna get the fuck outta here, get a fucking apartment with Corbin in California, and start the fuck over CAUSE I AM FUCKING MISERABLE.
 
Honestly, it's sad to know you're unhappy in Long Island, You should avoid the druggies who pull you down into their shit world. Not everyone does drugs. You'll have to find them. Until then, you'll be lonely.

While trying to find new friends, you may want to change your perception of friendship. You are a man. Stop dreaming about boy friends. Stop being such a dependent sniveler of a human. It's not an attractive trait. Be a man.

Good luck with everything. Maybe you're suffering from DT's. Stay clean and you'll feel better.
 
Yeah go re-read that shit, son. I literally woke up, typed this whole post groggy as fuck and I just reread it and realized "Wow, that sounded fucking gay."

'Cause there has never been any gayity between us and if there was I wouldn't give a fuck about admitting it.

I literally woke up, pissed, and wrote that. I was groggy as hell.
 
Most people don't talk about common interests such as fetishes when they're talking about friends, but you could be right and you feel no need to suppress your inner longings for your friend to ... return.

Possibly now that your friend has left, you could be looking for reasons not to like Long Island. Surely you can find some positive aspects to living there?.

But I do have two questions:

Were you watching Asian dramas before you went to bed?

And is your friend Asian?
 
Descent,

A lot of your struggles at your age will be resolved once you realize who YOU are when you are not around others and stay that person when you are around others.

Good luck.

And, you are over 18 now. Hitchhike to Cali if you want to.....its not like you are under house arrest or anything. I don't recommend doing it and you will probably get picked up by the truck driver from every horror flick who will chop you up and bbq you, but hey, its better than whining about how you have no control over your life.

You are the only person that has control and influence over you. The rest is just bullshit you use to excuse certain behaviours in yourself and others. If you don't like your friends, stop talking to them.

You are an adult. It is time to put the things of childhood away.
 
You've got some epic tenure on this site, considering the fact that you haven't yet spawned a B&T over this. You seem to have problems with most of your friends, so find new ones or shut up about it. Or join the military.
 
Okay...



Getting a little gayer....



So you didn't have enough pride in yourself to avoid doing what wasn't you?



Falling for peer pressure is retarded.



A man that lies to himself lies to everyone.



Change of atmosphere in order.



Define geek.



Adam must be the one that got away.



So he jerked off to Sonic,got ya.



Okay.



You just said you were poor. Hanging with middle class is "out of your league".



Then do it. Hitchhike if you must. Take initiative.
 
That would probably be because Descent is a cockgoblin like us chicks only more hairier and not nearly as hot and with smaller titties.
 
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