im so ugly and im very fat. im on a diet right now and ive lost 5 pounds but its taking a really long time, but my nutritionist wants me to take it slow. all my friends have had or currently have boyfriends and first kisses, and im 14 and ive never had a boyfriend or a first kiss. only one boy has ever liked me, but he was a drug addict so i didnt feel the same way for him. i used to think i had a pretty face, but i dont even know anymore. i really want to boost my self confidence. i already wear makeup and try to wear flattering clothes. there are heavier girls at my school, but it doesnt matter because i still feel like an ugly fat f*ck. please help me. how do i feel better about myself?