This is the week of finals, and next semester I leave college with a bachelors of science degree. I am 22 years old, the first in the family to obtain a degree, and everyone I know in the family is happy about that, everyone except me.
I want to stay in college a little while longer to be around the people I have grown fond of, but I know I must move on and establish my own home somewhere in the world. Every time I think of graduation, the people I know, all the good times I have had flash through my mind, along with a deep feeling of sadness. When I leave here, I feel I am leaving a lot behind me. All the friends I made, the acquaintances, the time I had fun, I feel lonely and empty just thinking about starting a new. I have yet to find a job in town because all employers are on a hiring freeze.
I don't understand, I was glad to be done with highschool because nobody there ever acknowledged my existence. (Yeah I could go on to say how perpetually lonely I was in highschool, but I will spare you the details.) I don't know why I feel this way now! Its mind boggling. Even now I am shedding tears just typing this.
I'm pathetic.
I have made so many friends in college all just to leave them behind and go back to my hometown. Am I thinking about this a little too much or should I just face the music and move on with my life?
I want to stay in college a little while longer to be around the people I have grown fond of, but I know I must move on and establish my own home somewhere in the world. Every time I think of graduation, the people I know, all the good times I have had flash through my mind, along with a deep feeling of sadness. When I leave here, I feel I am leaving a lot behind me. All the friends I made, the acquaintances, the time I had fun, I feel lonely and empty just thinking about starting a new. I have yet to find a job in town because all employers are on a hiring freeze.
I don't understand, I was glad to be done with highschool because nobody there ever acknowledged my existence. (Yeah I could go on to say how perpetually lonely I was in highschool, but I will spare you the details.) I don't know why I feel this way now! Its mind boggling. Even now I am shedding tears just typing this.
I'm pathetic.
I have made so many friends in college all just to leave them behind and go back to my hometown. Am I thinking about this a little too much or should I just face the music and move on with my life?