Whenever I do something, like start having fun, and other people aren't, i feel like they are judging me and thinking I'm stupid for liking a certain thing, like my taste in music, or my taste in clothes. I feel like people are always judging me. When I say to myself: "I won't care about what other people think, I'll just be myself" my mind will slowly, unconsciously, lead me to think that I'm being selfish or that I shouldn't be that way. When I start being myself and enjoying myself, and someone is looking, I get really nervous and a feeling of "STOP STOP STOP" takes me over. I try and ignore it but it's there and then I stop liking the thing thats giving me a good feeling.