im 22, graduated college in may, got out of a 4 yr relationship...
im working 2 jobs, trying to save money. I go out partying at least 3 nights a week which usually includes, going to strip clubs with friends, getting extremely drunk till 7am & have hanging around with questionable ppl (ppl who have been or are now alcoholics or drug users). I have had sex with 4 guys and 2 girls this summer. I had never hooked up with girls before but wanted to experiment & now i feel like all of this experimentation is derailing me. I feel out of control. I always partied but was NEVER promiscuous. I haven't been doing drugs & have used condoms every time. Both chicks were (clean) friends of mine. Ive stopped going to the gym bc of an injury & have gained Little weight.
i recognize that im on a slippery slope & im not sure how to help myself. Im an intelligent girl whose just lost right now. My ex-bf was my best friend, my two best girlfriends are in denmark & a different state, and my old guy best friend is in relationship that prevents us from being friends.
I feel abandoned by those closest to me. What should i do? How can i help myself? Im really into buddhism, any book suggestions?
Please no judgmental comments.
ugh, btw my father is a functioning alcoholic. I moved back home after college and my house is the most unhealthy environment- 2 jobs so i can save and run far, far away. Ive always been a party girl & dont want to totally change who i am...i just dont want to go to work another day, hung over on 2 1/2 hrs of sleep smelling of sex & cigarettes & having the regret the raunchy texts i sent the night before & having dudes calling me that i want nothing to do with! I WANTED to have sexual partners but dont want emotions involved!
im working 2 jobs, trying to save money. I go out partying at least 3 nights a week which usually includes, going to strip clubs with friends, getting extremely drunk till 7am & have hanging around with questionable ppl (ppl who have been or are now alcoholics or drug users). I have had sex with 4 guys and 2 girls this summer. I had never hooked up with girls before but wanted to experiment & now i feel like all of this experimentation is derailing me. I feel out of control. I always partied but was NEVER promiscuous. I haven't been doing drugs & have used condoms every time. Both chicks were (clean) friends of mine. Ive stopped going to the gym bc of an injury & have gained Little weight.
i recognize that im on a slippery slope & im not sure how to help myself. Im an intelligent girl whose just lost right now. My ex-bf was my best friend, my two best girlfriends are in denmark & a different state, and my old guy best friend is in relationship that prevents us from being friends.
I feel abandoned by those closest to me. What should i do? How can i help myself? Im really into buddhism, any book suggestions?
Please no judgmental comments.
ugh, btw my father is a functioning alcoholic. I moved back home after college and my house is the most unhealthy environment- 2 jobs so i can save and run far, far away. Ive always been a party girl & dont want to totally change who i am...i just dont want to go to work another day, hung over on 2 1/2 hrs of sleep smelling of sex & cigarettes & having the regret the raunchy texts i sent the night before & having dudes calling me that i want nothing to do with! I WANTED to have sexual partners but dont want emotions involved!