I'm half Japanese, half New Zealand European. I live in NZ now, and slowly, my Japanese has become worse. I can speak Japanese, but to an extent. I've tried studying, but I always have other things to do, and my mum never really helps me with my Japanese. I've been begging them to let me go to Japan as an exchange student, and they said, ok we'll see about that. Now they're saying no, it''ll interrupt your studying and NCEA (I'm in year 11 now). They said maybe we could all go as a family when I'm in year 13 but i DON'T want to go as a family, I want to go in year 12 by MYSELF and get fluent at Japanese, the sooner the better. but they don't seem to understand. I feel like I'm losing touch with my Japanese side.. I cried buckets last night because of that.. (i know, pathetic)