I'm just not happy in life anymore.
I have all the following:
Depression
Social Anxiety
Headaches
Physical Pain
I have never felt so low in life than ever.
It's so hard to stay awake. I can only keep awake what seems like 4 hours a day. And when I'm awake, it's so hard to even go to the bathroom, to go make something to eat, or even go out somewhere.
I have had depression on and off for what seems like years. I am 21 years old.
I feel like I have the energy of someone who's about to die.
I am scared of going to the doctors, the dentist, or to seek out help.
From the times I sought out help, all I ended up was myself to rely on.
It's so hard to do anything. I feel like I'm about to collapse and die.
I have social anxiety which prevents me to help myself. I feel like I'm stuck at home forever until I just give up in being alive.
I also have suicidal tendencies.
I don't know what to do. I don't know what's wrong with me.
I feel so horrible. I can't describe the reason for this.
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As I said, I feel like I'm deteriorating.
My diet consists of regular healthy food with minimal sodas and junk food.
I don't drink alcohol or smoke any cigarettes.
It's so hard to breath.
Right now it's summertime and that is probably adding to my fatigue.
I don't enjoy anything in life anymore. If I do, it's only for a mere second.
I currently do not have a job and I only feel hopeless trying to get a job again because I can barely even go to the bathroom or take care of myself. I can't finish school because it's so hard to concentrate on anything without a good, clear mind.
I've pushed away any contacts I have from people.
I have stopped doing activities that once brought me joy.
I've never taken any medications nor was I ever diagnosed with anything out of the norm.
Does anyone know what may be wrong with me?
I feel like the easiest way out is to let myself give up on life.
You are suffering from depression, and it can be treated. Go to your family doctor, take someone along with you if you areuncomforatable going alone. Either print out what you wrote here, or speak directly to him. Bring your support person in with you. It would be good if this person knew you and knew how bad you are feeling/acting. You need to get some meds and you need to have some counseling. There are people who can help you. Don't give up.
I agree! Please don't give up! Life is a unique gift and we are so lucky to be alive! Ask your mom, sister, brother, best friend to go with you..someone
Is there a reason for your depression? Normally there is.
Talking about it with someone face to face can be a real help. Its very good for your immune system to even express what is wrong with you. You need a good listener who you can trust, or of course a trained counsellor that can help.
Talk to God in prayer. He loves you.
But, hang in there. You can beat it.
Oh, just to add: do you work out? Regular sessions in the gym normally have a good effect on depression. Some people say working out is equally effective as taking depression meds.
Consult your doctor.
It sounds like clinical depression. There doesn't have to be a cause...clinical depression can be due to a chemical imbalance in the brain. It is treatable. You don't have to live the way you are- you can most certainly seek treatment and live a full and happy life. You may also have another ailment that is causing the problems. Just speaking from personal experience, thyroid disease can cause anxiety and depression. Other ailments can as well. You should see your doctor for a physical and a blood panel to rule out other causes.
The comment about exercise from another poster here is valid- exercise helps anxiety and depression both. It doesn't have to be vigorous, just walking can help.
I'm just not happy in life anymore.