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Leea
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IDK
I think Im unusual for a girl
I dont bond half th time after sex.
And I usually figure out how i really feel for a guy
i was friends for 9 months with my bf
before dating
he was a great friend but i wasnt sure if i wanted to date
he was very patient
i knew he was crazy about my photos online and also we shared some interests
anyway after his wooing, i let him court me .... he has been romantic sweet kind and loving towards me for 10 weeks
finally after he was started to do oral the last two dates (he is very good at giving)
i decided to have sex last night
he cooked me a romantic dinner and we had great time making out
but he didnt have a condom
he was divorced 18 months ago and hasnt had sex since then...
i know im close to my cycle but he was afraid of pregnanacy
so he slowly tried anal
ive never ever tried it before
finally he was able to and although he IS big it didnt hurt that bad
he seemed to really enjoy it and tried to keep pleasing me while we were doing it
afterwards he was all cuddly and said next time he'll buy condoms for regular sex.
turns out he likes anal a lot and even told me vaginal and anal feel the same.
really ?
anyway
he called me today to say he really and a fun time and he is lucky to have me in his life right now.
uh the problem is I NOW feel nothing.
not bonded at all.
In fact its sunday and all im thinking about is work, money and myself.
im 30 , he is 40.
am i just like a guy in sex (not bodning)
? or was anal sex something bad for him to do instead of vaginal for the 1st time ?
oh and because he is um well endowed i feel PAINFULLY sore today.
its a depressing feeling.
weirdly when i had great vaginal sex with my exbf it was a GOOD kinda sore the next day.
and i have NO issues with people who have anal sex. just for me personally its left me feeling sad. (and im normally this happy pretty outgoing chick)
and someone said he is with me for my body.... no, he has very deep feelings for me.
he seems to like so much about me.
says he adores me, misses me.
i think thats ONE reason i havent broken up
he will be very heartbroken
but yeah i think im bored and that he isnt right for me
and no im not worried about stds. he was checked last month and married FOREVER
and i cant talk about this with my friends
my friends are either in fashion and gay guys OR married chicks who are liberal and do everything
theyll just be mad i didnt break up sooner.
most girls would adore this guy
i mean if i had told him to stop he would have.
oh GOD. he called again.... he keeps asking me if i feel ok, if i feel weird
this man loves me it seems. thats why its hard to leave.
I think Im unusual for a girl
I dont bond half th time after sex.
And I usually figure out how i really feel for a guy
i was friends for 9 months with my bf
before dating
he was a great friend but i wasnt sure if i wanted to date
he was very patient
i knew he was crazy about my photos online and also we shared some interests
anyway after his wooing, i let him court me .... he has been romantic sweet kind and loving towards me for 10 weeks
finally after he was started to do oral the last two dates (he is very good at giving)
i decided to have sex last night
he cooked me a romantic dinner and we had great time making out
but he didnt have a condom
he was divorced 18 months ago and hasnt had sex since then...
i know im close to my cycle but he was afraid of pregnanacy
so he slowly tried anal
ive never ever tried it before
finally he was able to and although he IS big it didnt hurt that bad
he seemed to really enjoy it and tried to keep pleasing me while we were doing it
afterwards he was all cuddly and said next time he'll buy condoms for regular sex.
turns out he likes anal a lot and even told me vaginal and anal feel the same.
really ?
anyway
he called me today to say he really and a fun time and he is lucky to have me in his life right now.
uh the problem is I NOW feel nothing.
not bonded at all.
In fact its sunday and all im thinking about is work, money and myself.
im 30 , he is 40.
am i just like a guy in sex (not bodning)
? or was anal sex something bad for him to do instead of vaginal for the 1st time ?
oh and because he is um well endowed i feel PAINFULLY sore today.
its a depressing feeling.
weirdly when i had great vaginal sex with my exbf it was a GOOD kinda sore the next day.
and i have NO issues with people who have anal sex. just for me personally its left me feeling sad. (and im normally this happy pretty outgoing chick)
and someone said he is with me for my body.... no, he has very deep feelings for me.
he seems to like so much about me.
says he adores me, misses me.
i think thats ONE reason i havent broken up
he will be very heartbroken
but yeah i think im bored and that he isnt right for me
and no im not worried about stds. he was checked last month and married FOREVER
and i cant talk about this with my friends
my friends are either in fashion and gay guys OR married chicks who are liberal and do everything
theyll just be mad i didnt break up sooner.
most girls would adore this guy
i mean if i had told him to stop he would have.
oh GOD. he called again.... he keeps asking me if i feel ok, if i feel weird
this man loves me it seems. thats why its hard to leave.