I honestly dont know how to have fun. I'm a total loner and have been for most of my life. i mean, i know a lot of people but i don't have any real "friends". i've never been to a school dance, party, and i've only gone to the movies with someone other than my family 2 times. I'm 16 and i guess i just want to stop existing and start living now. how should i go about this?