I don't even know how I feel right now.

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Imagine being offered an opportunity to do something you have suddenly grown an incredible interest in. Imagine that the person who offered it to you said that you could get a great deal on it too. Now imagine that you're completely broke and have no way to pay for it, even at the lowest rate possible.

Now imagine that the person whom you have had a crush on for the last 2 years is taking advantage of that opportunity suddenly. Now they're going instead of you. And they didn't even tell you about it. You had to find out through a friend.

Now imagine that the last things that were said between you and your crush of 2 years were extremely hurtful and cruel. Now you won't see that person again until late August. Then they'll be here at home for less than a month before they have to leave again for college. While you're stuck at home, rotting away at the local community college.

Imagine that another close friend of yours is leaving next week and won't be back for a while either. Imagine that you can't seem to get a hold of anybody because they don't pick up their phones and they don't return your calls. Imagine feeling extremely alone and rejected. Hated. Ignored. Imagine getting 3 hours of work a week.

Imagine you and your family getting into fights constantly. Imagine your siblings breaking windows in your home. Imagine having to get your teeth drilled tomorrow morning at 10 AM sharp.

Imagine feeling like you're incredibly obese. Imagine feeling like there's nothing you can do about it. Imagine knowing that there is something you can do, but also knowing that you're just too lazy.

Imagine all of this and smush it into a 20 minute time span. And then add being on the rag to the mix. That is how I feel right now.
 
This is not writers block.

And, except for the unrequited love, that is pretty much every day of my life.

Now, imagine that you have to work.
Imagine that you have to do all the cooking.
Imagine that you have to do all the cleaning.
Imagine that you are grotesquely obese, but you still eat right and excersize, and just never lost the wieght you gained after your first child?

Now, imagine that I care about what you imagine.
 
Well to live without it and suddenly have it sprung upon you is pretty startling to someone who has just graduated from high school. My apologies if I don't know how people my senior live their daily lives, especially when I don't know them at all.
 
well said and you're correct; it's all relative.
just know that in a few years you'll look back and laugh like they did when they read about most of what you said.

you have the opportunity to go to college and you have people around you that love you. you'll grow to enjoy your siblings. you have dental care and i bet you don't even have to pay for it. outside looking in, it looks pretty good.

good luck and stay active.
 
Let's also imagine that this keeps happening, year after year, decade after decade, and you're 37 wondering when the fuck it's going to end. The flip side is it will have to end eventually, but the waiting sucks. Now imagine even more horrible things happen, and those you finally find and love begin to die, and all the things you do make it worse.

Ain't life grand? :thumbsup:

My advice, find a hobby, go insane about it like most people, and eventually death will sneak up on you and BLAM.
 
Quoted for TRUTH. Although I am not 37.

Look kids, life si what you make it. If you wait for it, wonder about it, sit on your ass and cry about it, then that is how you make your life. The best defense is a good offense.

Yeah, so people hate you. Fuck them. People hate me too. Hell, I hate me most of the time.

And yes, the time after High school sucks ass. You will get over it. Yes, having to work sucks, but, again---you will get over it.

I mean seriously. If you had something real and painful to tell me, I might care more. But this is life.

Everyone deals with those exact same things.

You think we all run around in beds of flowers with love and peace?

It is a hard, cruel world out there kiddo. You better get used to it.
 
Woo. I've decided that I'm going to take a dance class this summer, getting another hobby sounds great.
Things are already looking up...Haha.
Good luck to everyone else with theirs, I hope things work out for those of you who aren't having too good of a time in general.
 
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