I can't even pinpoint what is wrong with me, I'm just every where (eating disorders)?

J

Joie de Vivre

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I've never been diagnosed with any form of eating disorder.

-I really am convinced that I had BED (Binge eating disorder) from a young kid until now. I fit all the symptoms to a tee, and I would not be surprised at all if a doctor would diagnose me.

-The past yearish I've been SUPER obsessed about calories, burning fat, and losing weight. I was so absorbed in how awful I looked, and I just continued to turn to food for comfort.

-I am now obese, and the past couple months something FINALLY clicked. I can say no to food. I ranged from 300-700 on most days. (I still binge on occasion). I have been practicing restricting and it has worked. I finally feel in control of what I eat.

-I have a tendancy to purge. I probably have done it 5 times in the last two weeks. Just a guestimate.

-Whenever I gain a pound I get thrown back into this horrible hate for myself, and I get super anxious and start planning on how I'm going to lose that, more, more, and more.

I am so confused right now. Did I just go from eating huge amounts like a fat ass pig, to eating a normal amount?

I always wish I could throw up what I couldn't control in myself, but unfortunatly I am unable to sometimes due to family.

I just restrict, binge, purge, and hate myself every second of the way.

I AM legitimately obese though, 5'3 and 195 pounds? Yeah, I'm a whale.

I just don't fit in any of these topics--- but I know something isn't right. People don't have their thoughts consumed in how they're going to avoid eating lunch at school, people don't get thrown into a heat of extreme anxiety when they can't lose. At least, that's what I've been told.

What's wrong with me?
 
Wow ! your not as far gone as you think. I don't like food. But I eat to fill time. I drive a truck and don't smoke cigarettes, so I eat to kill time. But my wife is 5'2 an was at 220. she started weight watchers and in 6 months lost 30 lbs. We both go to the gym but that don't get off the lbs it's what we eat. You need a support friend or group to help you. Its hard (but not impossible) to lose the weight. But if you think of 1 candy bar is 4 hours on the treadmill you might think twice when you eat 1. But you have to think about it when you eat or you will weigh 500 lbs and really have some problems. When you get too big and if you did loose the weight your skin will be so stretched out you'll need to trim it off.
Get in to a gym or weight watchers program and start caring about yourself. One day you'll have kids and you will want to be in shape to be with them. It's a battle but you can do it. G. B. And DON'T GIVE UP """""
 
Just because you don't come under "anorexia" or "bulimia" does not mean your eating isn't disordered. There are plenty of other eating disorder categories, a huge but often forgotten one is EDNOS, which is for those who don't necessary come under any other category for whatever reason, and can be just as serious.
Obviously diagnosing whether someone has an eating disorder is something only qualified people can do, please realize that you don't have to be underweight to have one. I am currently diagnosed as bulimic, but am withing the healthy weight range, and know other bulimics who are over weight. An eating disorder isn't defined by a number.
in saying that, from what you have described your eating does seem to be disordered, and maybe you would be diagnosed as having an ED, but that is something you will need to check out yourself.
If i could give you any piece of advice though, it would be to get help now, seriously eating disorders are living hell(as im sure you know) so the quicker you begin to face them and get help, the better.
Hope this helps, all the best sweet xoxo
 
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