i believe i am the devil, coursed, and thrown from a heaven he never knew. why mental

[Jonathan]

illness? i am living in a security called a community, i feel safe from them, i like respect, to much shit being called crime. when you come up bring everyone with you, you can only strive for better...this money thing really bothers me, how it has become so much to do with humanity as a world we live in, we should be paying no taxes, just maybe a bit of health and safety, money was'nt made to control trade it was just something of value that could buy what you wanted. if this is really the only life you get then for most its a slave to income, it should'nt be like that, i want better in my life, i want to feel alive agian, i remember good times a better feeling, high spirit, you know, when its all good. i beleive in the work ethic, we all do our bit to improve others lives, resturants need good chefs and so on, i believe we should be paid, and a true reflection of wage to effort needed to do the job properly. i need on this earth £2500 to make my working life better not only earning wise, but also i will be qualified at something that could really change my standard of living, with abit of magic and some luck and effort, i could have a better christmas this year than last. i want to give more but still maintain a good standared of living, id like that range rover sport in either silver or black candy? I am a year out of hospital, I was away this time for attempted murder for the killing of a peadophile on the isle of wight. I did thirteen years for it. Im out now, sick to death of the systems care, Im out, what can i say that with half a chance i could really have that good feeling honest life???? i am sick of carrying guilt, it seems to of always been something of conciquence, i did wet the bed as a child, maybe that made them hate me? and it was defication from then on in. Do you think they were trying to build spiritually some kind of christ that would have all that pain, whatever, that i would die for them, the child abusers.