Here was my message to her and she thinks I was trying to blame her for crap, which I wasnt, but did it seem like I was blaming her in this message ? What do yous think I should even say or do? I really want get back with her.
How was I picking fights though ? I always try to avoid them, I wouldn't ever want to start a fight with you. I have alot to worry about then to start a arguement. Yeah, it might seem it but I wasn't ever trying to. The only time I remember I was kinda argueing was with the ocean city thing, which I wasn't directing it toward you, I was just upset cause I worked hard to convince my boss to let me have off a week to do it and then I understood what you meant cause it wasn't your say, and the night I was in the hospital yeah, I know I took it a little far. How have I ever bossed you around, I never told you to stay home or whatever, when you were in ocean city and you wanted to go to the h20 club I never told you to not go. I never held you back from anything, I'd just tell you to have fun and be careful. If I asked if you wanted to hang out and you didn't feel like it, I didn't get mad or anything I'd just say its fine. Except for the July 4th thing, I just wish you would have told me to try to get there, I didn't know you didn't want to come up, If I knew that I would have went down there for you. The only time where I was like upset was when we'd have something planned and it didn't happen but I never tweaked out cause I understand that you can't always come here or go on skype. I just wished you would have told me when I first pulled something up, that maybe I can come to you so can try to get a ride down to you.
I'm like what I am in person with you, I'm a nice person, I like being a great guy for you. I'm always polite with you, I never start arguements, I like paying for you when ever I can, when I feel something is wrong like in new york I asked, but I wasn't being a ass about it , I was concerned cause I felt something was wrong, I wasn't going to start a arguement, I would have just been like 'alright, I'll talk more, and I didn't mean to', its not just with you that I get quiet in public its with like everyone but I open up later like I did, I wanted to ask if something was wrong when we were at olive garden, but I was afraid to ask for some reason. I wanted us to go on skype cause I know we could understand each other easier, its hard to take what is said by reading it, thats why I ask so many questions when we were talking stuff out and again I don't try doing this just with you its everyone, if me and a friend are talking something out Ill ask 'hey can I call you?' because I can understand and they can understand better. Everyone knows I hate argueing and that I don't really ever try to start them, and if I do, I apologize and say I didn't mean it cause I didn't mean it.
When I see my friends argueing I try to stop it for them and resolve it, the only person I ever argue with is with Bill cause he doesn't know when to stop and ruins the mood for everyone. When I see my friends and they're boyfriend or girlfriend argue I'll stop it, like with Brandon and Pam, they argue alot and I hate seeing it. The only time I ever took a side with someone was with Jess and Ed, Ed was making her feel like crap and all, hes manipulative, and a idiot and I told her to take a stand.
I am trying to straiten myself out with everything, its just hard to go to college and work to pay for a house at the same time, If I don't make enough money I can't live where I do. I do have plans for my future and thats either to become a cna, or a social worker for people. I don't want to be working at a junk end job for the rest of my life, I absoultly hate it where I work but its something to help pay the bills for now, I want to make something with it and do what I like doing and thats helping people out. If I become a cna, I can eventually work at Guisinger in danville and they will pay for me to go to college and I can get a higher job, or if I work as a social worker,I can work at a high school and help kids out that are in need of it, or I can also work with adults somehow. I'd pretty much rather become a social worker though, cause I basically already am when I'm helping people out with whatever they need to talk about on their mind.
How was I picking fights though ? I always try to avoid them, I wouldn't ever want to start a fight with you. I have alot to worry about then to start a arguement. Yeah, it might seem it but I wasn't ever trying to. The only time I remember I was kinda argueing was with the ocean city thing, which I wasn't directing it toward you, I was just upset cause I worked hard to convince my boss to let me have off a week to do it and then I understood what you meant cause it wasn't your say, and the night I was in the hospital yeah, I know I took it a little far. How have I ever bossed you around, I never told you to stay home or whatever, when you were in ocean city and you wanted to go to the h20 club I never told you to not go. I never held you back from anything, I'd just tell you to have fun and be careful. If I asked if you wanted to hang out and you didn't feel like it, I didn't get mad or anything I'd just say its fine. Except for the July 4th thing, I just wish you would have told me to try to get there, I didn't know you didn't want to come up, If I knew that I would have went down there for you. The only time where I was like upset was when we'd have something planned and it didn't happen but I never tweaked out cause I understand that you can't always come here or go on skype. I just wished you would have told me when I first pulled something up, that maybe I can come to you so can try to get a ride down to you.
I'm like what I am in person with you, I'm a nice person, I like being a great guy for you. I'm always polite with you, I never start arguements, I like paying for you when ever I can, when I feel something is wrong like in new york I asked, but I wasn't being a ass about it , I was concerned cause I felt something was wrong, I wasn't going to start a arguement, I would have just been like 'alright, I'll talk more, and I didn't mean to', its not just with you that I get quiet in public its with like everyone but I open up later like I did, I wanted to ask if something was wrong when we were at olive garden, but I was afraid to ask for some reason. I wanted us to go on skype cause I know we could understand each other easier, its hard to take what is said by reading it, thats why I ask so many questions when we were talking stuff out and again I don't try doing this just with you its everyone, if me and a friend are talking something out Ill ask 'hey can I call you?' because I can understand and they can understand better. Everyone knows I hate argueing and that I don't really ever try to start them, and if I do, I apologize and say I didn't mean it cause I didn't mean it.
When I see my friends argueing I try to stop it for them and resolve it, the only person I ever argue with is with Bill cause he doesn't know when to stop and ruins the mood for everyone. When I see my friends and they're boyfriend or girlfriend argue I'll stop it, like with Brandon and Pam, they argue alot and I hate seeing it. The only time I ever took a side with someone was with Jess and Ed, Ed was making her feel like crap and all, hes manipulative, and a idiot and I told her to take a stand.
I am trying to straiten myself out with everything, its just hard to go to college and work to pay for a house at the same time, If I don't make enough money I can't live where I do. I do have plans for my future and thats either to become a cna, or a social worker for people. I don't want to be working at a junk end job for the rest of my life, I absoultly hate it where I work but its something to help pay the bills for now, I want to make something with it and do what I like doing and thats helping people out. If I become a cna, I can eventually work at Guisinger in danville and they will pay for me to go to college and I can get a higher job, or if I work as a social worker,I can work at a high school and help kids out that are in need of it, or I can also work with adults somehow. I'd pretty much rather become a social worker though, cause I basically already am when I'm helping people out with whatever they need to talk about on their mind.