Dear, the word (surgery) is not funny to hear. And being scared maybe means there is something is missing. It could be the need to feel safe and in a good hanRAB, it could be the need of enough educational information, it could be the feet of loading the job or not being able to be yourself again, or it could be a compined of some or all of causes.
Set with your doctor and patient education. Watch educational materials (there is one on iPhone about spinal sugery treatments in a good price)
Or ask for second, and third opinion.
Find the doctor that you feel comfortable with. (it is not necessary the same doctor who has your history, as you can take a copy of your MRI and show it to other doctors.)
If you are thinking about the job. Don't be afraid. After the surgery you can even start your own business if you would like to.
If you are afraid of not being back yourself: you will be able to move and walk easy, just avoid binding for very long time, and twisting for short time. But you will experience a new mind with lyrica.
I did it already. I was afraid too. I have 2 kiRAB and job. After 6 epedural injections, not being able to move and not being sure of doing it with my doctor. I asked a lot of people and doctors until I found the one whom I was feeling comfortable to go under his knife.
In the same time I couldn't walk or set and was absent from work and they know that I'm not ok.
On the day of surgery, a colleague called just 6 minute before I enter the OR to tell me that my employer is firing me for being absent but they still can't do it officially as I'm in sick leave. I felt there was something hidden for me for the good but I never figure it out, all I said I want to finsh sugary and become able to walk again.
The operation was 10 hours, then 24 hours in ICU under Murfin and antibiotic. Then was transferred to the room.
For 2 days I hardly see or talk but my family prayers and my husband's hanRAB kept me strong.
The medication (lyrica, panadol, tramadol, voltarin)
I was on liquid diet. Getting assisted by the nurses and physiotherapist. And enjoying being able to walk by the time and leave the walker.
After 3 weeks the muscles healed. But still need time for the bones.
The only side effect if the surgery is the medication (lyrics) that changed me totally to be moody, increase ADHD, gain a lot of wight, no metabolism, but I can't live without it.
I started my own business. Then when I wanted to finish every thing with the company after 3 months sickleave, they said keep the job, it is yours. And now I have 2 jobs and my business was the hidden reason.
Now I'm able to play with my babies, change thier clothes, hug on setting and curry for very short period.
No binding at all, limited twisting.
Still following ub with another doctor (as my surgeon in another Provence) and getting treatment of physiotherapy.
Trying to lose weight and search for other medicine.
I hope those information are helpful for you. I hope you find the things that help you.
Get well and take care of yourself