I am new here and this is my first post.

[lifeiz2short]

My names Eve and i'm 19 yrs old. I'll cut straight to the facts and say it. " I am addicted to oxycodon. The street term for them is Roxi. Also known as roxicetts. If I can't find those then I just get perks. I would say it's been a year since I started taking these pills religiously. I don't take as much or have as high of a tolorence as some, but I am still having many issues. I am used to taking 15-30 mgs a day. Even if I go one day I start to freak out. The addiction is probably more mental then anything. I just like having something to do in a way. Taking a roxi, just one, lasts me all day, yeah its $15 a pop, which is rediculous. No wonder I am broke all the time. But sometimes I feel like their worth every penny. I want to quite, I really do, I just...can't. As soon as a get money in my hanRAB whether I have no food or gas, I'll get a pill anyways, just so i'll have a good day. I want to quite because I'm sick of being broke, If I didn't spend all my money on pills I wouldnt have to worry for anything and all my bills would be paid. I would be able topay people back, and never ask to borrow money again. I want to quite because I feel like I am controlled by these pills, like I can't be happy without them. If I do try to quite the farest I get is 2 days and thats only because I didn't have any money for them. I just feel very weak. I am dependent on these pills for happiness, when happiness is starting me right in the face looking at me like I'm retarded for thinking drugs would make me happy. They do, but only for a moment, and in the long run they aren't worth it. I have never had a harder time doing anything in my life and I havn't even fully tried yet to quite. just keep telling myself "oh this is the last one, tomorrow i'll quite." but i never do.
Anyways I just want some advice. Like I said , I almost feel like it's all in my head. Like if I were to go to Hawaii right now for a week, I don't think I would think about pills at all. Or even smaller situations...like If I spent my day working,then school, after those two is when I would really be wanting one. Then spending the rest of the day relaxing on a porch I don't have, And swimming in the pool I also don't own. How about eating deliscious food I don't have any money for. oh God, I just get myself even more depressed sometimes when I try talking it out. I start thinking about all the reasons I take them, reasons for not being able to quite. I'm done venting, I've already said way oo much.

 

[mabent]

Dear Life -
If you really do want to stop taking this terribly addicting, dangerous drug, then you can before it has taken over your life. Things aren't going to get better - only worse. I have had experience with addictions - cigarettes and valium were the drugs. I know that that isn't as bad as being addicted to heroin or cocaine------or oxycontin; however, it is still an addiction which is very, very, very difficult to get rid of once it takes hold, which is very quickly.
I didn't realize how much my personality had changed while I was taking valium only for sleep! When a new doctor refused to renew my prescription, I was sure it wouldn't matter, although I did worry. Little did I know that I was addicted to Valium, just as I had been to nicotine earlier. Valium addiction, I suppose, isn't as bad as ocycontin addiction, but I went through at least 2 weeks tapering off gradually before I felt normal. That is when I realized how much Valium had changed my personality. I had become mean and was not the person I used to be. After I was free of this drug, my attitude chang ed. Cigarette-smoking had ruined my social life and caused me to have serious bronchial infections. I gave up that addiction because my doctor told me that I had mild emphasema, which would eventually cause me to have a horrible death from COPD. (my sister died from that).
You are still young, but you seem to be a very intelligent person who cares about your health. I don't know how you got addicted to the oxycontin - it probably was the same way I got addicted to diet pills in college. We have an "addictive personality", I guess. It can be genetic. BUT, it can all be changed once you realize that you want to be in charge of the rest of your life and not let drugs (especially illegal drugs!) be in charge because it will only get worse and you will have wasted your life before you realize what you have done. I hope you will read more about how miserable addicts are and the stories they have to tell before you go further with the oxycontin!
Mabent

 

[fifitrixabell]

You have made the first step by admitting you have a problem. You are such a young girl. You have your whole life ahead of you.. you are just starting out. I didn't start taking drugs until I was in my mid 20's. Mainly ecstacy but which followed on to cocaine. Speed, slimming pills, all sorts. On one occasion I took ketamine (horse tranquiliser) I didn't know thats what it was. Well it was the most frightening experience of my life. I didn't think I was ever going to see my daughter again. My point is that in 'those' moments, we take anything we think we'll get a high from.. and luckily for me I am here to tell the tale. A 14 year old girl died a few months ago from my town from taking something similar to what you are taking.. is it really worth it? Can you talk to your parents? I'm guessing not.. if not do you have an older friend or close friend to your family you can confide in? I used to write my Mum a letter if I had something I wanted to tell her but couldn't tell her face to face. You need help my lovely.. I did it on my own but I am a woman now in her 30's and a mother myself, so I had more reason to sort myself out. You said about you having no money.. I used to plead poverty to my Mum saying I couldn't feed my daughter, crying, I couldn't buy her shoes etc.. but that was because I was spending hundreRAB of