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I think I am going crazy, or I am on the brink of a panic attack. My life so far currently living out on my own has been so stressful that I just want to break down. I currently have a job that allows me to pay rent and bills, but makes me struggle with other necessities. I currently have NO food in my possession. My roomate has been ordering take out a lot and is giving me his food, thank god for him. But, I hate taking money away from him by eating the food he orders. I have applied to a few resturants, but they have not contacted me yet. Then there is college. I have one class that I have skipped about 4 times in a row. And on those terms, that is enough for getting me dropped from the class. If I get dropped, my parents will stop paying for my school. I cannot pay for school, so that means that my entire future teeters on one class. Nothing really fortunate has come my way with the exception of Danni. I love her, but life over here has been pretty much hell on my mind. I went for a walk yesturday while actually TALKING TO MYSELF out loud. I only realized this 1/2 way into my monologue. I tried getting sleep, but I kept waking up in the middle of the night and staying up for 1/2 hour at a time. When I woke up this morning, I felt a little bit better. Then, I walked to my car..... stuck on the front window is a ticket. Well, it is a "Complaint and Summons" paper. It basically told me that I had plates not registered to my name. In indiana, if your car sits in the drive for long periods of a time, you are a resident. BUT, with college, you need a shit ton of stuff to prove residency. Yes, the out-of-state tuition is killing me and my family. So, my morning has been shot to hell.

Had to somewhat get it off my chest, sometimes it's good to see your problems written down so you can tackle them one at a time.
 
:( slinger you are a really smart guy with a whole lot of brain. you can do well in class, you just need to go do it. remember how you got the same grade as i did in class...and i worked my ass off and you didn't? i could have kicked your ass that day. i know stuff gets hard, just hang in there buddy. try and apply at hollywood video..you would love it there. i had a blast when i worked there. just take a deep breath bud. you know we, not just here at wtf, but your friends and family at home will always be here for you. we care about you and hell...you're one of my best friends and love you to death. don't give up.
 
Thanks Jane, I know I haven't been there for you as much as I was a few months back... and I am sorry.

Life is just throwing me for a loop, that is all, just need to find a way to make peace with it I guess..
 
I've been where you are. Here are a couple of tips.

Peanut Butter samiches. A big jar of cheap PB goes a long way and is fairly nutriious. Buy your bread on sale. You can get a loaf of Store Brand wheat for about a buck. Come up with enough for a jar of some flavor of Jam and you have fruit too. Banana's are good too, just don't grill them the way Elvis did.

A part time job at a restaurant or Pizza parlor is good. Free food and tips keep money in your pocket. If you haven't heard back, revisit. Sooner or later you will walk in the door when they are strapped for help. Even washing dishes or bussing tables gets you a free meal. Be enthusiastic and at least pretend to care and you could get more. Be likeable, which I'm sure you are if Jane likes you. You really can attract more flies with honey than vinegar. You'd be amazed what people will do for you when they see you struggling and really like you.

Go to class! This is why you are going through all this. Really silly to suffer through this and not go to class.

A place big enough for a college will have a Soup Kitchen. Forget pride, eat. You can also volunteer for a shift to aleviate your conscious. Get others to volunteer too.

Indiana, is it still the land of taxes? Getting plates in Indiana used to be based on the value of your vehicle. Could be expensive. But it's been 30 some years since I lived there momentairily. Not sure how to fix this one, but I bet you just need to talk to the right person and explain your situation.

Hope some of this helps. Good Luck!
 
hey man, i moved away not you. that doesn't mean you are any less of a friend to me. i DO miss being insanely freaking crazy with you though. you should go into stand up comedy. you would be hilarious
 
Problems always seem overwhelming and insurmountable when they stack up, but they're not always that bad when you're able to think about them systematically. How about devoting some time to putting the details of everything that's bothering you onto paper. Nail down exactly what's wrong. Then, work out what you need to do in order to set each of those things right. Then break it down into what needs to happen in order to allow you to do each of those things to set it right. Keep going like that until you have a list of simple, concrete things that need to be accomplished in order to get yourself back on track. List them in order of priority and importance (not always the same thing). Then tackle the first item on your list. Once it's done, congratulate yourself, and then if you have time and energy, move onto the next thing. Sooner or later you'll find your momentum and getting through the list will get easier and more rewarding. But every single item ticked off is an achievement and a victory.

If you're suffering from panic attacks, go and see whoever your college provides as a counsellor / guidance counsellor. They're emotionally frightening and unpleasant experiences, but they are physically harmless and he/she will be able to teach you a few tricks to get through them without needing to avoid triggery situations.

If you need someone to wail to and bounce ideas off, my email inbox is always open. *hug*

A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step.
The trick is to keep breathing.
 
Wow...
Sounds like a page out of my own situation. I'm studying aerospace engineering, and life is extremely stressful. People constantly rag on me for every little thing, and on weekends, my social life pretty much consists of me sitting on myspace pretending I actually have one. Like you, I don't have much money, and even less food. In short, College is a bitch. You cannot tackle all of your problems at one time. Write them out, organize them in your head, and then with deliberation, tackle them one at a time. College can be extremely stressful, sometimes you need to go for a walk and talk to yourself if only to get it out of your system. Good luck. btw, potatoes, eggs, and rice are all extremely cheap.
 
As always, you know I'm here to talk to you, and as I've said before to you, I will always be here to help you, if you ever need me to.

Just remember that even when you think it's best you keep it to yourself to work things out, sometimes it's better to tell someone how you're feeling, no matter what.

I'll give you a shoulder to lean on, because I do love you.

Things will get better. You'll see.
 
Damn Slinger,

I know you and me never really got along much. but I still sympathize for you. Wish there was some way I could help you out. I know how it is trying to live away from home with a shit job that barely pays for anything. Damn, that really sucks. Well if you ever want to talk about your porblems. you know who I am.
 
As people said, things will definately get better.

Everything has a balance, it will go down but will come back up in time.

I wish you luck.
 
we in the mental health like to refer to the talking out loud to self as "processing out loud" ..........and look back at your life........has there not been a continual of different crisis' ......like this one, they all pass......and if you learn anything from it , it makes you stronger, so quit whining, take care of what you actually can do anything about.... and wait for it to pass
 
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