Sounds to me like your parents are sending you a message, but there message is really based on ignorance. Let's face it, straight people don't give nearly as much thought to homosexuality as do gay people. I think you should try to educate your parents about gay people. The fact that they see gays as "troubled," not as inherently evil, is a good sign. Of course, among gays, as in any group, there are some messed up people, but most gays, like most people, live good, constructive lives. Chances are when you finally come out to your parents, they'll initially have a hard time, but then over time as they come to learn more about the subject, will come to accept you. My dad had a really hard time with me being gay, but he eventually became great friends with my partner, even greeting him with a kiss like he greeted his other children and their spouses.