I am bipolar/schitzaphrenic on Giodin and Klonapin I cannot stop talking rapidly and...

[debrianna]

...am always on verge of bei? i started two months ago after long eoisodes and anger toward my boyfriend my mother and everyone. I cannot ssem to shake this and the anger is horrible. I was taking resperidone but it made me have weird side affects and I stopped it and went without meds for 4 months thinking I would be better off without it. Now I am different and my menatl illness has progressed. I drive my Mother and boufriend crazy, I will not let them talk and all I do is tallk, and swell and re-peat myself over and over. even when asked I still don't stop talking and then I end up making my Mother leave or my boyufriend leave, they cannot stand it and i am driving myself and them crazy. I cannot seem to do much of anything and I have no life because of it. I have epeisodes all the time and they have been lasting for 3 hours and sometimes longer and now I am in my closet without windows I feel paranoid as if people are always watching me and to me i t is real. I don't know what to do , and I do sometimes take street drugs and know it i snot good but somehow stilll do it. I am a mess and my Mother says I am impossible and unflexable and she is at her witz ends trying to do something to help me, I am 29 and do not need a hospital, but yet I suffer this all the time and cannot stand being in my own skin.Any suggestions, I am so sad and feel as if I am all alone in the world and no one listens or hears me or understands what I am going through.