I am an ADDICT I said it finally!!!

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Well if interested my story starts after a shoulder injury from work 5 yrs and 4 surguries ago. They gave me pain pillls to take and I wouldnt touch em, Funny huh? I have a bad anxiety disorder and one of my triggers is taking medication. Well after surgury 3 i was in so much pain i finally said and took the pills. Since then it been 4-5 perc 10/325 a day. I hate it with a passion but I am still in pain. The surgeons response to pain is wanting to give me morphine patch, i flat out refuse to do that. I want to stop but now my anxiety disorder is telling me i cant live without them. I have a 4 yr old who if he ever found out about this would devistate me.( i know hes only 4 and dose not know but still). What are my options? anyone else have an addiction and anxiety and come out the other end. i hate myself for this I never took anytinhg before for anything and now I'm an addict. NEVER THOUGHT THIS WOULD BE ME
 
I DO!

I am currently trying to break a physical dependance to Tramadol! About hour 13 I become short of breath and completely on edge! It is the worst in the mornings! I find that Ginsing helps tremendously! I am in no means recommending it, simply telling you what helps me!

Congrats on admitting you have an issue! Have you spoken with your doctor about this?
 
No i have not. Mr family doc is a personal friend and I cant bring myself to tell him
 
you family doctor should know that this is possible , it would be a good idea to talk to him, if he is a family friend that should make it easyer for him to help . dont be ashamed this happens to unsupecting good folks every day .good luck scott , keep us updated:)
 
Hello Timsdad,

Welcome to the boarRAB :)

If your family doctor is a friend, do you have another doctor you could talk to? Perhaps try going to the emergancy room. There happens to be a crisis dpmt. at my hospital. I went through them and was introduced to my addictions Dr.

Also, you can try going to an NA meeting. It is completely anonymous.

Congratulations on admitting you are an addict. Saying those worRAB for the first time can be almost impossible. I bet that took a weight off your shoulders, huh?

Keep us posted, and keep posting. There are alot of wonderful people on these boarRAB who are extremely helpful :)

Good luck,
emsmom
 
Hi timsdad, Big step! Almost makes you sick with disbelief. What's good right now is that you don't have to continue behaving like an addict.
It's kind of like being a liar. We are all liars. The guy that says he is not a liar, just hasn't admitted it. But, we don't have to lie. Telling a lie one time makes us a liar, technically. We don't have to continue lying. We can choose a different behavior.
Now that you realize your situation, you can begin to take steps to change your behavior. Your pain and how to deal with it is a priority. I have found in the past that frienRAB don't always make good docs. You have a delima with your doc. Proves my point. I believe and I now hire and research my docs more than anyone from my mechanic to my a/c contractor. I research his background, education, time in practice and then I interview him to see if we are on the same page about things and if we are compatable with each other. This is no joking matter. I want a plan and I am paying for it. If his plan doesn't work then I have probably wasted time and money. I seriously do not give these guys a blank body to work on. I want to know! They are the professionals.
Find a good doc that you can be completely open with. You can't expect your doc to do a good job if he is not fully informed. Only you can fully inform him.
Addiction is something you can live with in it's arrested state. You have to do those things that arrest it. Most of the time we addicts have something in us that helps us become addicts. It is always good when you can get there.
Good luck on your journey. Blessings to you and your family. Hold fast and continue on.
 
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