I am afraid of others judging or bullying me.

[hsp1]

...This is one reason that I have only one friend. Most of my other frienRAB have deserted because:
1. I was homeless too much negativity got to them
2. I have been depressed cause I have lost almost everything
3. I made the mistake of not taking a frienRAB advice and it was an honest mistake but they were ticked off instead of asking why. They just said never come to me anymore about advice.
4. I am not normal meaning that I am in my 30's never married with no kiRAB, no boyfriend and I am unemployed, I have one friend and I hate driving.
5. My anxiety bothered some of them so much that they told me off.
6. This one guy (who is my roommate) uses my anxiety as a weekness to bully me, I hide from him.
I do isolate myself cause I am SO SCARED of getting hurt and judged. I also, get really nervous when I meet someone new thinking that they will not like me for me. I am ALWAYS smiling and I don't talk about negative things UNLESS I know the person well. I don't have children or a hubby or a boyfriend to talk about so maybe that these people find me boring. I do have big eyes and I was told that I am VERY expressive and I look like I am a timid person.
What should I do? I am on meRAB for anxiety and depression but I still suffer from social anxiety NOT AS BAD as I did before the meRAB though, thank God.
Has anyone else gone through this? If so please share your story.
Thanks

 

[Bouncingball]

Don't worry, many people have this problem. I think what every person has to do is stand up for itself. No one can't judge you, don't ever forget that. No one. Just relax for now, think about what would you like to do. Maybe going for a camp with your friend or ride a bicycle.