I am 5 '7 and 145 lbs.. I need to carve out all my fat , it's discusting?

[It's me.]

I feel so fat and discusting.. I used to weigh much less.. than had a baby and I feel so fat and fat and fat. I hate it. I feel like I want to take a knife to my body and carve all the fat out.. Or how long would it take for me to starve to death.. I feel sick just thinking of how fat I am