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Reshawnna
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So my husband and i had a fight and he left to go to his moms house. we have been fighting ever since we got married. and we have been to counseling. i don't know what to do.
i guess its my fault? because i always get depressed that we have double standards and then when he asks me whats wrong i tell him and he gets mad at me.
i say how come i have to make us lunch and cook dinner, and you dont, and i have to do all the housework and have a full time job, but you can just play video games?
and how come i cant have male friends at work, but you can have female friends at work that you text all the time?
and you can open a secret savings account and have part of your check deposited in there, but i have to use my WHOLE check to pay off your collections department loans because you dont care that you owe money
how come i have to defer my student loans, so i can pay off a credit card that i gave you on my credit (i know i am a fool for that one) that you used for movies and video games?
and how come you can spend our savings but i cant?
and how come i have to text you when i go out every 2 months with a girl, but you can go out once a week and you dont have to text me?
honestly i guess i should get over it? and realize that i am MARRIED. and it reallt is as shitty as almost everyone says?...
what really started the fight to blow up was that when he walked out of the room after yelling at me and waking up my family that we were visiting, i asked him to stop and he didnt
i sat there and then got so infuriated at his actions thati ran downstairs and jumped on his back, hitting him, but not hard
he then grabbed my neck and started choking me.
i fell on the floor, and couldnt breath, but he kept choking me.
then he left.
then he came back in to bother me. said some more insults to me. completly demeaning again. made me mad- i put out my arm to hit him and he grabbed it, twisted it very hard i fell down, then jumped up when he let go, grabbed a tie and managed to choke him with it, then he grabbed my face and neck again and strangled me, then he cried out for me to stop, so i did, but he continued to choke me for a while.
he was a football player for goodness sake.
he tells me i have to text/call when i go out because he is a grown ass man that wont but hurt, but i will.
i guess i dont want to call him because i feel he is more harm than these fools on the street.
well he has put his hands on me before.
i never called the cops b/c i was used to my dad attacking us when i was a kid/teen. you just leanred not to do that.
i said why did you put your hands on me and he like i never did, i only ever touched you in self defense...
sigh
this sounds like a scene from a movie, and i have to get my behind up in 5 hours to go to work. while he is on a vacation that is not paid because he used up his vacation days, but just felt like not working.
and believe it or not we are both professing christians.
we must be posessed or something.
even that pastor tried to help us.
i dont know what to do.
i have been so stressed i havent had my period in 3 months now.
took a test that said negative.
i dont know what to do.
i guess its partly my fault. but i know i do not deserve the verbal abuse.
i guess its my fault? because i always get depressed that we have double standards and then when he asks me whats wrong i tell him and he gets mad at me.
i say how come i have to make us lunch and cook dinner, and you dont, and i have to do all the housework and have a full time job, but you can just play video games?
and how come i cant have male friends at work, but you can have female friends at work that you text all the time?
and you can open a secret savings account and have part of your check deposited in there, but i have to use my WHOLE check to pay off your collections department loans because you dont care that you owe money
how come i have to defer my student loans, so i can pay off a credit card that i gave you on my credit (i know i am a fool for that one) that you used for movies and video games?
and how come you can spend our savings but i cant?
and how come i have to text you when i go out every 2 months with a girl, but you can go out once a week and you dont have to text me?
honestly i guess i should get over it? and realize that i am MARRIED. and it reallt is as shitty as almost everyone says?...
what really started the fight to blow up was that when he walked out of the room after yelling at me and waking up my family that we were visiting, i asked him to stop and he didnt
i sat there and then got so infuriated at his actions thati ran downstairs and jumped on his back, hitting him, but not hard
he then grabbed my neck and started choking me.
i fell on the floor, and couldnt breath, but he kept choking me.
then he left.
then he came back in to bother me. said some more insults to me. completly demeaning again. made me mad- i put out my arm to hit him and he grabbed it, twisted it very hard i fell down, then jumped up when he let go, grabbed a tie and managed to choke him with it, then he grabbed my face and neck again and strangled me, then he cried out for me to stop, so i did, but he continued to choke me for a while.
he was a football player for goodness sake.
he tells me i have to text/call when i go out because he is a grown ass man that wont but hurt, but i will.
i guess i dont want to call him because i feel he is more harm than these fools on the street.
well he has put his hands on me before.
i never called the cops b/c i was used to my dad attacking us when i was a kid/teen. you just leanred not to do that.
i said why did you put your hands on me and he like i never did, i only ever touched you in self defense...
sigh
this sounds like a scene from a movie, and i have to get my behind up in 5 hours to go to work. while he is on a vacation that is not paid because he used up his vacation days, but just felt like not working.
and believe it or not we are both professing christians.
we must be posessed or something.
even that pastor tried to help us.
i dont know what to do.
i have been so stressed i havent had my period in 3 months now.
took a test that said negative.
i dont know what to do.
i guess its partly my fault. but i know i do not deserve the verbal abuse.