you need to back up a few steps first.
1. get invited to a nice private tracker site (not Demonoid). you will need to be invited from a member.
2. Then you can search the site you were invited to for what ever you are looking for and download the .torrent file and let utorrent do it's thing.
OR
you could download the photoshop .torrent file from a public tracker like Mininova or Pirate Bay and let utorrent do it's thing.
BUT...
you are taking a hudge risk of downloading and installing all sorts of virus's, malware, trojans, spyware, and anything and everything that someone could have packed into the file.
I am sure you will eventually figure it out only I would like to ask you if you like it buy it. we need to support our software people.
You said "All the other free applications are similar to Photoshop just don't cut it for me." This is why we should support people and/or companies who make software that is better that the freeware.
Any way...GOOD LUCK!