How more can life suck?!

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permafrost

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Ive got kind of a fucked up life,
My father died 3years ago..he had cancer in about 2years..
After his death, I had to stay strong and I locked myself in and made those..scars on my wrists.. and really screwed up my life, I would of never tought then that I still would be alive today. :sword:

Well..my bf Titus that I got later..it ended that he hit me in the face, I left him. My second(christian) boyfriend.. I was with him almost 9months..then it ended and I found out that he had cheated with 2girls in prag and my ex. bestfriend.. Along the road I have many times tought of suicide...but I apparently never made it.

Now for 5months ive had this wonderful bf, but along that..
My ex(christian) nailed me to the wall and hit me and yelled, then i changed school, more homework, my fathers death coming up again and so on and so on.

My brain is now boiling over and I'm afraid that my new bf wont cope and eventually leave me. And im constantly afraid that somethings will happen again..can some1 please help me?? :sad: :question:
 
that sounds terrible. Maybe you need a change of scenery. Move to another city, or another country even. I don't know what kind of advice i can give to you that would help you... i hope everything works out.
 
Well, first of all, you need to stop cutting yourself, thats a cowards way out.
Suicide isn't an option, just because of the shitty things thats been going on in your life, you need to cheer up, maybe hang out with new friends. If this new b/f cheats on you(which in our case, we hope not), but maybe its because you go after the wrong guys? Maybe you need to change what kind of guys you like, for example, if you like the bad boy thing, try something else, like a preppy guy. I'm sorry to hear about your losses, but you need to get your ass out of the gutter, and start cheering up, hell this is life, you only have one chance, and you don't want to screw it up by doing something stupid.
 
oh haha it's good that I can help some people with my shitty life ;)
umm yeah i dun cut my wrists..i did that like..2years ago, when my life was really shitty, didnt eat, couldnt sleep, had no bfs etc

Oh no my new bf doesnt cheat, but im afraid he will..
although his last gf did cheat on him so he has said that he would never let anyone go through with that pain.. but still those things haunt my mind.

Thx alot everyone for replying and it really helps =)
yeah, everyone thinks me and my bf are the perfect couple, hihi.
We will move and I'm gonna move someday
 
SHUT UP!!!!! My Father died when I was 15 and my mother and stepfather where hooked on meth!!!! And my step father liked to beat my ass, and fuck with me just because I wasnt his!!! Keep a strong head on your shooulders, and clear it up TOO! Life ain't bad!!! Others have it better... Yeah, others have it easier.......Yeah! That just motivates me to do better than them!!!! Don't let life beat you down! Rise above it all..... You can't let life beat you.... Why???? Grab it by the balls and come out swingin!!!! There is so much for you to have in this world other than self pity and loathing!!! Live it, get on with it!! Let's GO......
Look I have bad days when I wake up feeling like a fuckbag..... But I move on!!! GOTTA! Theres more in this world for me than bein a lil'bitch cause I got it bad! Fuck that..... Everyday I think about the way it was and I look at the way it is and where I can be, or where I GONNA be!!

Don't use this as an excuse to throw your life away!!!! Rise above!!
 
I'm not using it as a excuse , I'm just tired sometimes and like to tell it to people who don't know me and then they can say whatever they want, not thinking would this hurt her feelings. THIS is such a fucking great place! :D
I just need that kind of stuff, sometimes my brain just seems to get stuck in this one mode.. "go fuck yourself ure stupidasshole no1likes you"
Yeah I know it is not the worst thing that could happen to me, and I am working on it and I just love when people tell me to fuck off and just live life as it is meant to live. Not to try to comfort me like som baby that fell down the stairs.:eyes:
 
Trust me I know how you feel!!! You get in a rut and it's a motherfucker to get out!! But keep movin!! It's hard when your young dealing with this bullshit!!! Your parents are supposed to die B-fore you, but not this way...not this early. It's a tough road, and you've come this far!!!

Don't give in and keep goin... Things get better!
 
I do trust you, I do think that YOU know how I feel.
And I know, I'm gonna make it. I will :)
but sometimes u know that everything feels shitty but luckily there is always some1 you can tell, or there should be =)
 
Suicide is a permant solution to a tempoary problem, you need to find someone to bitch to in your life and try not to rely on realationships. you need to solve your problems on your own. realationships will only lead to emoitional uncertainity. try to find strength in your life and hope a work for a better life. everything will work itself out in the end. be strong
 
Attention whore, Yes I am sometimes.
But no1 did know that I cut myself the time I cut myself.
only my new bf knows and...you.
I don't want you people to feel sorry for me, I just want help.
 
Ive found out that, but I just can't leave my bf he's to important for me...
But I have that "me" time so I can get my anger out and all my problems at that moment then I come back and he's all "wtf??" and I'm all "nutin"..or I make time for myself..sadly I'm stupid and my knuckles(is that the right word?) get all auch auch..bc of the walls.. BUT I'm not a totally nutcase, I am getting better :P

Ive also found out that sometimes my mind is almost splitting becouse I do'nt know what to think . But I can't leave him...he's to important for me..
 
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