Doppelganger
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I really wish i that i could never have any sexual desires. these desires only make suffer because they are never satisfied. i can't even see commercial with girls in bikini in television because my family immediately assumes i am getting sexually aroused. if i had never watched porn i would have never had these sexual desires as strong as they are now. something i regret is losing my virginity which was a once in a life time chance to have sex. if i had never lost it i would have been remembered as the man who lived long and died a virgin. That memory of me could have been great. only if i had thought of this before. not only that but the girl who i lost my virginity has HIV. Fortunately she didn't get pregnant. so now i'm doomed. i was born to live in solitude. to have no friends and without friends how can you have a girlfriend. i was born to suffer. but then something miraculous happen i got a girlfriend. i thought my loneliness would be gone but i ended up being mistreated. this girl who went to jail for 2 months and for reasons she would not tell me. and now i'm alone again. slowly being killed by the girl who was probably a prostitute. that very thing i desired became my death. something that many people often get. something that i will probably never have again will kill me. there is no reversing it. but a lesson should be learned self control is important. avoid losing it. but is there hope for ever regaining self control if so people tell how do you control sexual desires and change your perverted ways?
i now think that fate is not what you will live but who you are.
i now think that fate is not what you will live but who you are.