How do you fight the depressing moments of fusion recovery?

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LOL.....so true Back Ache....this surgery woke me up a little too....I will never judge anyone who parks in handicap (even when they do backflips) again.....some days I think my brothers think im just milking it....trust me.....Im not even half way there yet...lol....During Christmas I chose to not eat christmas dinner at the table and I felt very uncomfortable......it was just me.....but Im a doer and those type of things are out of character.... so its working on me a bit......next time you go to the show take your pillow and a bean bag! lol

glad you had a laugh....so did I

Devon
 
Thanks Lynn.....

We all have to keep possitive.....I noticed Back Ache is 3 months post op and still having bad days.....yikes....It must be working hard on getting you down.

Im a doer and refuse to get down....believe me Im a big time doer...I roof homes....do concrete work ....marketing ....and also have three patents ....Im a thinker who wakes all hours of the night to try something I just thought of....my wife loves when I have no ideas...lol.... what Im getting at is we need to keep busy and stay within our restrictions like lynn says....I only hope at 3 months Im still strong if need be.

Hang in there lynn....have you been to the movie theater?...I did WOW its been years and it was cool to watch a movie with my son.....a little tough to sit that long but shifting and a popcorn run helped.



Devon
 
I so appreciate all the comments! I am jealous, Devon, that you have sunshine and can walk outside. As many here, I am also a doer. In the early days of recovery, I looked for 1 thing that I found I could do just a small bit easier than the day before. We are talking "small impromement" but it was helpful to see that progress and know it was going to get better. My kiRAB are wonderful and have impressed me more than you know. They do everything with me directing them on what neeRAB done next. Truly priceless, and they also realize how much I did for them. It has been rewarding. I think now that I do feel better, on very little pain med if any at all - only for night time sleep. The weather is so bitter cold, and never seeing the sun. The realization of the limitations is the hardest. I'm not a patient person. SounRAB too familiar I'm sure. Keep the comments comming. It helps knowing others deal with the same "pitty" moments. ;) Maybe together we can all help each other.
 
Devon-
Your movie comment made me laugh. I've been to the Movies a couple of times. It's a total comic relief. I can not sit that long, no way possible. With the theaters arm rest that raise up, it's so much easier, because I just lay down! I choose movie times that are less crowded and sit by the edge so I can have a few extra seats. Then I pile up everyone's coats and use as a pillow! The looks from people are really mean and their comments don't help. But at the end of the movie my frienRAB all help me up and make a big deal and all those people that made comments before feel really stupid after that. We get a laugh out of it. It's an eye opener to realize that you never can understand the circumstances of another person until you walk in their shoes.
 
I am 3 months post-op of a 1 level fusion L3-L4. I am doing very well and even possible ahead of "schedule" as my Dr. tells me. I walk what seems like all morning long, on and off the treadmill. I still have little stamnia but continue to walk. I wear a TLSO which I am now weaning off from. YIPPEE. Overall, I am very pleased with my progress. Of course, there are still moments of self pitty because of so many things that still can not be done. How do you fight those depressing moments?
Would love to hear any advice.
Thanks!
 
Back Ache.....I bet when spring hits you will be doing soooo much better!....just getting outside a little does so much for you mentally.

Devon throws a big ball of sunshine to Back Ache!

Devon
 
This thread has had a lot of hits that people are reading it. I know there are more ideas. It's not about depression and medication. It's about those "self pitty" moments that we all fight. It's about Deven eating Christmas dinner somewhere other than the table and feeling bad, or me going to the theater and dealing with rude people's comments. These are the moments that we all fight that tear us down. Beleive me, this recovery is aweful. However, as aweful as it is the end result has to be better or who would ever choose to put yourself through this, right? So many of us are "doer's" we don't sit idle well. The sitting idle is what is killing me. When I don't and over do. I pay for it. I realize that I'm not as far along as I feel and I need to enjoy the relaxation of visiting with my kiRAB, or watching a movie with my husband or whatever. The harest part of the 3 month mark is the fact that you feel great. You have more energy. You "think" you can do much more than you really can and that is when it becomes so difficult.
How do I fight those moments? I visit with lots of different frienRAB. I don't complain - no one wants to hear it anyways. I volenteer where I can to give me something different to do. I bake, I really enjoy baking. But it is really hard to do and wears me clean out.
Anyone else?
 
Here are some thoughts....

Take a walk and while you walk SMILE.

When you wake in the morning complete the following statement :My purpose today is....

Try to make at least 3 people smile each day.

Life isn't fair, but it's still good.

Don't compare your life with others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.

Each night before you go to bed, compile the following statements:
I am thankful for...
Today I accomplished.....

Enjoy!
 
Back Ache,

I read these BoarRAB and sometimes that helps. I also try to do little things for others that are worse than I am. It may simply be serving coffee at church or holding the door for someone or reaching for a canned good for in the grocery store for someone who is in a motorized chair. I also try to get one thing accomplished each day and it may just be simply folding a load of wash or walking a little bit farther today than I did yesterday. It does get depressing but I am thankful for my health and that it could be something much worse.:angel:
 
I also found it very difficult after the surgery for the first couple of months. I started talking to the neigrabroadors when I was out walking and frienRABhips started to form. i might invite someone over for a cup of tea. It took awhile but I started to worry less about what my house looked like. We have a plaza complete with a grocery store about a mile away. I would walk to it and wander around. Also, when the neigrabroadors were heading to the store I would ask them if they could take me. I really like Walmart because you can wander up and down the aisles with a walker. I learned how to cook from watching the cooking shows on tv and trying new recipes.:wave:
 
The thought of depression never had entered my mind... until now... I am scheduled for 4 level PLIF on the 28th Jan, L3, 4, 5, S1. I have always felt I was a positive person and after going through 6 knee surgeries, 2 heart attacks (stents firmly in place now) and a double discectomy L2/3 L3/4 in 07, I never had an issue.


IMO, a postive outlook and to trust in [politically correct] higher power are the cornerstones. I have a super family, and also have an internet biz. I hope to at least dabble in the buisness post op (after a few days) as I have made preperations (Laptop table to serve double duty, food and work). I also have lined up a few books I have been meaning to read.

Hopefully this all will help keep the depression at bay. If not I'll try to think of "Happy thoughts" and try to remeraber that there are others worse off.
 
Back Ache,
I hear you! 7 weeks post op of 2 level fusion and I have those moments you speak of. I have tried to redirect my thoughts to what I can do now as opposed to what I could not do even 2 weeks ago and that sometimes helps. I also find that figuring out how to do something I want to do in a safer easier way in my new (no bending no twisting no lifting) condition gives me a sense of accomplishment. This board has been a constant source of encouragement for me and you will find others here that are doing their best to cope with what is frankly a long and gradual recovery process. Do you like to work with your hanRAB? I enjoy knitting or crocheting or hand stitching even tho I am not very good at any of them my hanRAB busy on several projects keep the boredom with one down..when I get sick of doing that I switch to something else. I know there are times when no matter what I can try to do I just feel down..and I think that is part of the process... as Delaware has said..maybe focusing on helping others in even the smallest way can take the focus off the depression..mostly the things mentioned above work but sometimes they just dont. I do find it passes tho when I think of how downright awful I was before all this and how even little improvements are giving hope. If you feel down for days however it might be time to call your Dr and just relate how you are feeling...perhaps they can suggest something to help.
thinking of you
Lena:wave:
 
Im lucky to have had good weather where I can walk with my wife and 7 yr old son at a nice park with a lake and wildlife.

When I feel down I think of the trouble I had in surgery and how fortunate I am to even be here.

I lost weight from surgery and use that to continue on my weight loss plan....lost 25 lbs since just before surgery.

Im actually like a kid in a candy store right now......Im doing things Ive never really done.....laundry,homework with my son,not drive(weird),just relax and let my wife do it(she absolutely loves waiting on me) shes always wanted me to slow down and now I see and enjoy why!


I grilled dinner tonight.....wheeeew! It was a workout.lol

My son is amazing....Ive always helped him get ready for school and now the roles have reversed....he gets my shoes ready and helps me get breakfast etc.....he is a very loving and caring boy.

I am only 5 weeks post op and im sure it will get worse.....but I will have alot of possitive to reflect on.

something funny........
my son got a 3-d puzzle for christmas and him and the wife started it as they usually do......well me being bored I started doing it and realized my son was sitting there and watching me do it rather than helping......he was enjoying me enjoying myself.....may be a blessing in disguise.


I do have some things that drive me nuts but I choose to see the above.


Devon
 
Hi Back Ache,
Three months was a big turning point for me. That's when I started being able to do real things again. I went back to church (and stood in the back for most of the service, but I was there!), did little household chores, went to the grocery store (with one or more teens with me to push the cart), and was able to sit for longer with less pain. I hope you'll experience that, too.

In the meantime, if your depression gets too bad, don't be ashamed to ask your doctor for some help. Chronic pain is very wearing. Maybe a little something to get you over the hump will help. There have been lots of people here who went that route and were glad they did. I'm not one to medicate quickly, but there's a time to pursue some help.

I hope you'll find some things to keep you busy and will get through this recovery faster than you had even hoped!

Take care,
Emily
 
Hi all, I visit the back board often but dont post as much as I am recovering from cervical fusion with lurabar issues to be dealt with in the near future.
I have some good frienRAB from the back board though. Just thought I would respond with just my opinion. I am struggling here & it less then one month post op. I use to wish for time to just sit & relax,lol, & know thats all I am suppose to do. I am hyper (ADHD) so I knew this would be tough, yet I thank god that I get a chance at being pain free or at least living with less of it.
Perhaps feeling like this is linked to a lose of control, you know depending on others. Lets face it the days are long to. I am not use to this at all & know realize how much of a control freak I am with my house & yes alittle on the OC side,lol. I can do some of little things I always wanted to have time to do but yet I still feel abit depressed at times & powerless when it comes to my house & life. In fact at times I am ashamed of my bad mood.
I just ask my husband if he would mind just getting me out for just abit at least once a week. I realize I am different with the cervical & some of you can do even less. I did ask my last visit with the surgeon what am I allowed to do know & the answer was nothing.
So I have started some scrapbooking, tried video games, which I was told I am the worst my girls have ever seen. I also rarely ever sit long enough to watch TV but am trying to watch some good comedies here & there. Everyday I just tell myself be grateful & it will be worth it, then I pray for patience. So I think this may be common.
I did just read where someones fusion did not take & she feels it was do to some of her actions during her recovery so has the choice of totally resting for 3mnths or going through surgery again now. I took that as a message.
Good luck to you all & heres to successful outcomes. Sammy
 
lynn,
Thanks for walking with me today. It made the difference for me this morning. I walked 3 miles broken up in 2 intervals. I also decided to random acts of kindness for my kiRAB and husband. They really do so much to help me, I thought it would be nice to leave notes in their lunches or whatever.

How did you walk go?
Who else wants to walk with us..please join in!
 
I agree with Back Ache!

I also have an extremely difficult time sitting idle. In fact, I can't stand it! I am the type of person who can't even watch a movie because I can't sit still for that long. I am on disability from work at the moment, and will be for awhile yet. I should be taking it easy, but I don't. I get to a point every single day where I am in so much pain from over doing it, that I can't do another thing. I am incredibly worried about the surgery recovery. I have already started brainstorming little projects I can work on to keep my mind occupied. One of them is, after almost 4 years of marriage, I am finally going to put together our wedding album:D
 
hi all.....

gah Sammy....I just read your post. Today I am suffering from depression :( I walk around my house and it just seems out of sort. I am much like you.....I never just sit around. I am or was, always doing something in my house. mostly just cleaning and straightening up every day. I think i am a bit oc also ha......my husband has been doing the laundry and cleaning ect. Its not that i am not thankful and grateful...but its not the same as if I did it. OK OK OK I sound ungrateful. I am just depressed today. I am feeling better so I feel the need to be cleaning :( i am so thankful to be feeling better.......I just need to learn patience and i suppose i am learning it. Sammy, its the same.......cervical and lurabar restrictions are pretty much the same. Ive had both......I have to say, the lurabar fusion recovery has been way harder. Of course, i had a set back and perhaps thats why i feel its been harder. Ok....enough of my whining .....i suppose i just need to sit here and be thankful to not be hurting....


LYNN
 
hi.....

I fight depresion myself. BUT......every day that I wake up pain-free, it helps me lots. I try to stay busy. Cannot do hardly anything with the restrictions that is put on your recovery but I can always find something that I can do! Staying busy as you can might help :) If that doesnt help.....tell your doc and maybe get on medication to help with your depression. Ive taken anti depressants before and the medicine sure helps!

LYNN
 
awwww Devon......,.that made me feel all warm after reading your post. The statement about your son watching you enjoy the puzzle! That is wonderful....I have kept up with your progress over the past month and you had a rough go at surgery. So, with that being said, you are so lucky to be doing as well as you are huh? :)

I, myself, am a doer. I find it very depressing not to be able to do things in my house. The no bending, twisting,lifting restriction is so hard. You find yourself wanting to bend to get something and you cant. It really gets so hard. I try to balance my day out between walking, sitting for a short time and laying down to rest. It surely has helped me to have found this forum. Gives me something to read that I can certainly relate to. And then on the bad days it gets depressing. My day today was a bit painful. So, I ressted more than I did anything. I do have pain still but, it is surgical pain. It takes so long to heal it seems. Or.....maybe I am just an impatient person? I am only 3 weeks post-op. I chose to have my fusion surgery during the winter months as I absolutely love spring time. I so enjoy being outside planting flowers and enjoying the sunshine. So, I am hoping to be able to at least be able to plant flowers :) Last spring and summer, I was in pain so I didnt get to enjoy the things I love so much. Hopefully, the problem is resolved to a point I can at least do some of the things I once enjoyed. I try hard not to get so depressed as it dont help in recovery? As many has said on this forum......it could have been so much worst. Maybe a problem couldnt be fixed surgically? Or....being paralyzed ? So.......I try to stay as busy as I can, with the restrictions, as I can. Good luck to you all and try to stay busy as you can with the restrictions......

LYNN
 
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