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My boyfriend and I have a very open, loving relationship. When we took the plunge and decided to start having sex, it was completely amazing. The first time was like any first time (I was a virgin) - neither one of us were really expecting me to orgasm. We've been having sex for a month and a half now, I still haven't managed to orgasm. The other night he and I were laying on his couch, snuggling and watching MI-5. Things got kind of heavy and he ended up touching me. We couldn't have sex because of personal reasons, but we both admitted that we were pretty aroused. I wanted him to touch me - it felt nice even though he wasn't in the right spot. I thought about moving his hand but in the end I started babbling my head off because I want sex to be a mutual thing. I don't want to be the only one getting pleasure, I think that it's selfish. My boyfriend thinks he sucks because he can't get me off. I think that my body hates me. We're both frustrated and taking it out on ourselves. I want to have sex, the feelings that are brought up are amazing. Connecting with someone is amazing. But I really want us both to get off! I don't know what to do to cause myself to get off. We're both so self-conscious - he tried going down on me but he was uncomfortable and I could tell, so I pulled him back up. Today we talked about how we're both pretty quiet during sex, because we are self-conscious, not because we want to be quiet. Sex is amazing but I feel like eventually we're going to get so frustrated with sex that we just give up. What should I do?