Please don't judge me i already feel bad enough 
so this the situation we met like a year and half ago on the internet and we talked for ever and a day well we got together well we had a long distance relationship and for a while like five or six months ( we were friends for a minute ) well we broke up and we stayed in contact well he was 18 at the time and i was 15 well he graduated and he went goes the college in the city i live in and there was a football game and i lied to my momma and told her i was going there and i went to his dorm and we finally saw each other after a year or two we were close to having sex ( at this time i was 16 and he was still 18 )but he stopped it so we just played around and i really had fun with him 
and i think about this every day but his birthday was like like a week later and i bought him a Aeropostale shirt and a rosary and a card ........... well we broke up and i never gave him the stuff its still on my dresser and i cry every time i look at it and i miss him so much he was the only person that ever treated me right . But i didn't realize that and i broke up with him because i didn't trust him ( b/c when i was at his dorm some girl texted him and was like he baby and i was like whats this and he was like my friend he said you want me to tell her to not call me that and i was like yea and he texted her and was like my gf said can you not call me that .......... and she said ok . ) but i broke up with him well i text him every now and then he always wants me to come over there and i be like nah well one time i said i might and he said well do you have a bf and i lied and said no just to see why he wanted to know and he was like maybe we can mess around and i was like no you gotta a gf and he said that's i really just wanna see you and i was like ok but i never planned on going and i got mad and was like im not a toy omar im not coming over there cux im not a toy and you cant just put me in the Back of the toy chest and play with me when you get ready to . and he was like ok Neisha ok i still just wanna see you and i was like no and we ain't really talked alot since then ill text him and see what h's up to but since the holidays he's been with her and don't doubt he loves her nut i know he loves me he tells me at random times that he does . so i know he does and i think he misses me just as much as i miss him but he's scared to say something help me i really dont know what to do i do know i love him with all my heart and i really do wanna be with him even if we cant be together i want us to me close Friends we wer
so this the situation we met like a year and half ago on the internet and we talked for ever and a day well we got together well we had a long distance relationship and for a while like five or six months ( we were friends for a minute ) well we broke up and we stayed in contact well he was 18 at the time and i was 15 well he graduated and he went goes the college in the city i live in and there was a football game and i lied to my momma and told her i was going there and i went to his dorm and we finally saw each other after a year or two we were close to having sex ( at this time i was 16 and he was still 18 )but he stopped it so we just played around and i really had fun with him and i think about this every day but his birthday was like like a week later and i bought him a Aeropostale shirt and a rosary and a card ........... well we broke up and i never gave him the stuff its still on my dresser and i cry every time i look at it and i miss him so much he was the only person that ever treated me right . But i didn't realize that and i broke up with him because i didn't trust him ( b/c when i was at his dorm some girl texted him and was like he baby and i was like whats this and he was like my friend he said you want me to tell her to not call me that and i was like yea and he texted her and was like my gf said can you not call me that .......... and she said ok . ) but i broke up with him well i text him every now and then he always wants me to come over there and i be like nah well one time i said i might and he said well do you have a bf and i lied and said no just to see why he wanted to know and he was like maybe we can mess around and i was like no you gotta a gf and he said that's i really just wanna see you and i was like ok but i never planned on going and i got mad and was like im not a toy omar im not coming over there cux im not a toy and you cant just put me in the Back of the toy chest and play with me when you get ready to . and he was like ok Neisha ok i still just wanna see you and i was like no and we ain't really talked alot since then ill text him and see what h's up to but since the holidays he's been with her and don't doubt he loves her nut i know he loves me he tells me at random times that he does . so i know he does and i think he misses me just as much as i miss him but he's scared to say something help me i really dont know what to do i do know i love him with all my heart and i really do wanna be with him even if we cant be together i want us to me close Friends we wer