Ok.. so i had this really dysfunctional relationship when i was 18, he was 20. We dated on and off for about 2 years, up untill around this time in 2008. After bickering a lot for the past few days, we were together one night at a mutual friends party, got into a huge fight and it turned into him grabbing me by the throat and arm, and ripped my shirt by throwing me into a wall. I was so embarrassed i broke up with him then and there. Over the next two weeks we got back together but the verbal fights continued... Well after a pretty bad fight over the phone one night that left me in tears (because he would not talk to me, he refused to communicate.. but i loved him to much to just let him go) my sister who was in town for the holidays, convinced me to go to an old friends party in another town an hour away. Well when we returned the next night i decided to have everyone over to my moms, Him included (we had all the same friends) aaaand the fricker showed up to my house with a hickey on his neck.... come to find out later in the night, it was from my BEST friend.. my "sister", "girlfriend", "bestie", .. she slept with him. She was 16. I broke off all communications with the both of them immediately. I was crushed, to say the least. I lost the two people in my life that meant the most to me. And to make matters worse, they started seeing each other shortly after all this. they even moved in together after a few months....
now its 2 years later, and i am still dreaming these crazy dreams about him 3-8 times a week. the most reoccurring one is where I’m pregnant with his baby and he left her to be with me, but she was still in the picture, like shed always be around, just hanging out in the background, but would never say anything. Ive casually dated a few people here and there since, even moved 2000 miles away and changed so much since then. But there i still find myself lying awake because i cant stop thinking about him. Its driving me crazy! Ive deeply considered seeking theropy but it is simply not in the budget... Please help me i feel annoyed that i cant forget about this and it hurts me every day. Please help me
now its 2 years later, and i am still dreaming these crazy dreams about him 3-8 times a week. the most reoccurring one is where I’m pregnant with his baby and he left her to be with me, but she was still in the picture, like shed always be around, just hanging out in the background, but would never say anything. Ive casually dated a few people here and there since, even moved 2000 miles away and changed so much since then. But there i still find myself lying awake because i cant stop thinking about him. Its driving me crazy! Ive deeply considered seeking theropy but it is simply not in the budget... Please help me i feel annoyed that i cant forget about this and it hurts me every day. Please help me