My boyfriend and I are both going on 19 years, (we share a birthday,) and have been together for a little over a year. First of all, I'd like to mention that we are soul mates, completely compatible in every possible way, and love spending almost all of our time together. We almost never argue or disagree about anything, and have pretty much the same exact interests.
I know that he has wondered about his sexuality in his past, but he insists that it was entirely bicuriousity and simply a stage that he went through. He has a few strange fetishes including animal penises and transsexual porn. I also know that before he met me, he had a preference for overweight girls, (we are both very thin), which I don't really understand and don't really want to, so I simply disregard this.
He treats me so incredibly wonderfully and there's nothing I'd change about him, I just feel like he isn't interested in me sexually, and it seems very forced. There are some things that he just won't do, (missionary position sex is about all he'll agree to), and he doesn't seem to really want it very often, if ever. He also has difficulty getting and maintaining an erection, so pretty much the only time we have sex is right away in the morning, when he's already hard.
My boyfriend also is somewhat homophobic and seems to feel somewhat squeamish about my gay friends, which I've heard is a sure sign of being a closeted homosexual.
I've confronted him about it many times and he always gets extremely offended, and I don't want to hurt him because he's the best friend I've ever had and I love him dearly. He also refuses to be "just friends". I know he cares about me, so I can't imagine that he would use me to satisfy his ego. I just want him to be open and honest about me, and with himself. Even if he isn't gay, I'd like for him to be willing to discuss the issue, and I want him to know that I'll love him unconditionally and support him no matter what.
I know that he has wondered about his sexuality in his past, but he insists that it was entirely bicuriousity and simply a stage that he went through. He has a few strange fetishes including animal penises and transsexual porn. I also know that before he met me, he had a preference for overweight girls, (we are both very thin), which I don't really understand and don't really want to, so I simply disregard this.
He treats me so incredibly wonderfully and there's nothing I'd change about him, I just feel like he isn't interested in me sexually, and it seems very forced. There are some things that he just won't do, (missionary position sex is about all he'll agree to), and he doesn't seem to really want it very often, if ever. He also has difficulty getting and maintaining an erection, so pretty much the only time we have sex is right away in the morning, when he's already hard.
My boyfriend also is somewhat homophobic and seems to feel somewhat squeamish about my gay friends, which I've heard is a sure sign of being a closeted homosexual.
I've confronted him about it many times and he always gets extremely offended, and I don't want to hurt him because he's the best friend I've ever had and I love him dearly. He also refuses to be "just friends". I know he cares about me, so I can't imagine that he would use me to satisfy his ego. I just want him to be open and honest about me, and with himself. Even if he isn't gay, I'd like for him to be willing to discuss the issue, and I want him to know that I'll love him unconditionally and support him no matter what.