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AngL
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I used to have really low self esteem in high school (to the point I was suicidal) and thought that now, just graduating from college, I had made a lot of progress. Well, I had a situation with my roommate being mad at me that really showed me how my low self esteem still is. Like everything is totally fine now, but when she was mad at me I was like hysterically crying because I felt so bad. I thought how, once again, i was completely overreacting to someone else's opinion, but I couldn't help it. Then i realized that my self esteem is still low enough to the point that it makes me depressed, avoid taking risks, and is holding me back from my full potential. Ex: I still think about and worry about mistakes I made or times when someone criticized me years ago;I just graduated summa cum laude from college about to do Teach for America, but I still feel like I only got good grades&got in to the program b/c I was lucky;I feel like a fake!! i seem like I'm smart & got things together,
but really I'm just terrified of everything, of people not liking me, of entering the "real world"& not doing well, etc. this is something that has hurt me my whole life & I'm just sick of it. I cannot continue like this with all this self doubt, perfectionism, and need for external validation. I just want to be happy and stop stressing myself out! How do I build my confidence and truly believe in myself? How do I stop that inner critic and forgive myself? Thank you!!!
I actually do have a boyfriend that is amazingly loving and points out my positive traits (Lord knows he has more faith in myself than I do) and am on wellbutrin & have been on it for a few years. It has helped with the depression, but it doesn't help self esteem issues lol.
I actually do have a boyfriend that is amazingly loving and points out my positive traits (Lord knows he has more faith in myself than I do) and am on wellbutrin & have been on it for a few years. It has helped with the depression, but it doesn't help self esteem issues lol.
but really I'm just terrified of everything, of people not liking me, of entering the "real world"& not doing well, etc. this is something that has hurt me my whole life & I'm just sick of it. I cannot continue like this with all this self doubt, perfectionism, and need for external validation. I just want to be happy and stop stressing myself out! How do I build my confidence and truly believe in myself? How do I stop that inner critic and forgive myself? Thank you!!!
I actually do have a boyfriend that is amazingly loving and points out my positive traits (Lord knows he has more faith in myself than I do) and am on wellbutrin & have been on it for a few years. It has helped with the depression, but it doesn't help self esteem issues lol.
I actually do have a boyfriend that is amazingly loving and points out my positive traits (Lord knows he has more faith in myself than I do) and am on wellbutrin & have been on it for a few years. It has helped with the depression, but it doesn't help self esteem issues lol.