Mother Russia
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I'm nineteen years old, and here's how I spend every college night.
I'm locked in my dorm room by myself on the computer, watching college basketball, and drinking. It's such a depressing lifestyle. I would consider myself a nice kid. I'm a little shy but I can open up if you give me a chance. I'm also fairly decent looking. I'm not overweight, and some girls have given me a little notice...well...that's only when they're drunk or they give me a little attention until they just leave me for no explainable reason.
I kind of try to make small talk, but whenever I try to ask someone to go to eat, I get shut down or they come up with some bullshit excuse. It takes a toll after awhile, and I feel like a piece of shit most of the time. I'm also afraid of girls for some reason and I don't know how to meet them unless I'm drunk. I somehow went to prom, don't ask me how I did it. Sometimes I don't know. The guys in college say I have a lot of lady potential, but social rejection just kills me.
I wouldn't say I'm too depressed because I'm happy during the day when I have work to do and I'm usually by myself at that time. You can only do so many things by yourself though. I feel kind of lonely.
How do I build myself up after I've been belittled so much throughout my life?
I'm thinking of going to get therapy again.
I'm locked in my dorm room by myself on the computer, watching college basketball, and drinking. It's such a depressing lifestyle. I would consider myself a nice kid. I'm a little shy but I can open up if you give me a chance. I'm also fairly decent looking. I'm not overweight, and some girls have given me a little notice...well...that's only when they're drunk or they give me a little attention until they just leave me for no explainable reason.
I kind of try to make small talk, but whenever I try to ask someone to go to eat, I get shut down or they come up with some bullshit excuse. It takes a toll after awhile, and I feel like a piece of shit most of the time. I'm also afraid of girls for some reason and I don't know how to meet them unless I'm drunk. I somehow went to prom, don't ask me how I did it. Sometimes I don't know. The guys in college say I have a lot of lady potential, but social rejection just kills me.
I wouldn't say I'm too depressed because I'm happy during the day when I have work to do and I'm usually by myself at that time. You can only do so many things by yourself though. I feel kind of lonely.
How do I build myself up after I've been belittled so much throughout my life?
I'm thinking of going to get therapy again.